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Yo Abang!!

2012-02-15T22:05:00.001+08:00

This is just about Syauqi Kusyairi. My dear lil' abang angkat yang suka mengomen dan membaca blog saya. Thank you Abang!!! Haha...

Taknak cakap panjang-panjang, banyak-banyak, meleret-leret. Nanti salah cakap abes kena komen terul-teruk. Hohoho~

Silent Friends

2012-02-15T21:57:00.000+08:00

Do you have that one person that you know will always be there for you despite not seeing each other for a long time?
That one person who is always there yet you don't talk or see each other often at all.
That one person who never breaks a bond despite not being able to hear from you, not being able to get the news first yet treasures the friendship you had since you were kids.

Luckily I have two.
It's Siti Suraya binti Muhammad Jasni and Ong Jo Neill.

I've known Suraya since I was in standard One and she has been my best friend ever since. She would always stand to defend me anytime I needed her. We had our times when we would quarrel and have these little fights just because I spelled her dad's name wrong. But we always make up soon after. There was this one time when I was jealous of her being too close to another friend of mine, Syahirah that I ended up ignoring both of them, secluding myself from the world. Now when I think about it, how childish was I back then. We parted ways when I entered the MARA system; my enrolment to MRSM Kuala Terengganu. I remembered that she was the first one to hold that offer letter and handing it to me. That morning, we vowed to each other that we would excel in the same school and show the Ministry of Education that they made a big mistake ignoring our letter and 5A's result for UPSR. It was such an irony that at the same day in the afternoon, I was handed that letter from my best friend. Yeah, sure I was happy but I was sad too because Su wasn't going to come along. I accepted the offer and moved far in the West Coast of Malaysia studying my butts off before I moved to a much closer place in Melaka to continue my secondary studies. Su and I stayed best friends until now. We don't nag each other on the phone, we don't call every week, we don't even hang out each school holidays. But I know she's there. She's always there when I need her. We don't stalk each others lives but we do love laughing and fooling around whenever we see each other. She's the best friend I could have ever have and this year we've practically know each other for 11 years already.

Jo Neill is the star in our primary school. She always aced her subjects and always got the top rank in school. Nobody could beat her. I started to notice her during standard Three and she was in the second class; Bakawali while I was in the first class; Anggerik. The school just opened so they don't give mind to put the pupils in right class based on their performance. And when we entered standard Four, we shared the same class and I never did taste the sweet top rank place in class anymore. She would come first and I would come second. It always ended up like that. There was this one time when I won against her but it was just a minor monthly test so it never did count. Jo Neill was a very timid person. Never had that much friends when we were kids. Most probably because she was a Chinese and she seemed kind of strict. But I like her. I really did. I helped her alot with computing marks on the computer since the teachers always asked her to do it. We would skip class and I would read out the list and she would type. She was really fast, rarely made any mistake. Then whenever Hafidz annoyed or made fun of her, I would become the bad-assed Ketua Pengawas and give him a piece of my mind. There was even this one time when it would be me, Jo Neill and Shankari in a group and we would claim each other of being best friends, like One Malaysia and all(well that was the time when I got in a fight with Su. Haha..). Now she seems okay living in her new school, disliking camping and adoring dogs. She picks up strays and cares for them in her house. Such a big heart aye? I have been dying to meet her yet there hasn't been a good time to do so. Yesterday I was on the phone with her and we talked like it was nobody's business. We laughed and promised ourselves to go to the same college of we could. She wanted to start next year but I insist on this year. I'm gonna bring you to that interview even if it's the last thing I do. And that Mahjong banner's coming with me. Haha... LOL.

Su is bubbly and cheerful and just full of liveliness and I like that part of her. She's lovable for it and I wouldn't care less what other people have to say about it. Jo Neill might seem like she's quiet and all but she has a mouth and she can talk so much if you let her. The brains, the looks and the big ginormous(is that even a word?) heart is all packed in this girl and if you got a problem, I'll beat you up for it.

Yeah people, these two are my silent friends. They don't pop on my facebook page often but they are there. Like Ronan Keating sang in his song, "You say it best, when you say nothing at all."

I really felt like dying

2012-02-14T23:00:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I had a real busy day. With painting my room and getting an allergic reaction, it was hectic.
Lesson learned people, NEVER paint your room without wearing a mask. I suffered. You bet I did and it was not a good feeling at all.

I woke up early expecting a fresh start and I did have it. I ate my breakfast at around 7.30 am; two pieces of toast and scrambled eggs together with a mug of Milo. After breakfast, I scramed to my room, get that face mask and shower cap and marched to my other room(my supposed-to-be-new room), ready to paint. Before I did anything, I opened the windows to get some fresh air. Then I started.

Paint~paint~paint~paint~~

And I stopped for awhile at around 1.45 pm, looking around at this single wall that's not done yet.
'Penat tau tak penat,' I talked to myself. ALOUD.
Seriously people, painting is not an easy job. Especially since you're doing it alone.

So, I thought of taking a short break. I sat down on the piece of cardboard I put on the floor, opened my water bottle and drank some water. All of a sudden I wanted to lie down on the cardboard so I did. And guess what I had coming. I SLEPT. Ohh, you bet I did. For 15 minutes which I thought was just a few seconds. In a room filled of poisonous gas without my face mask on. Once I opened my eyes, I could my whole body yearning for rest and my stomach was growling the alert 'HUNGRY'. I took my phone and quickly changed to my One Direction playlist and swore that as soon as Up All Night has done its last beat, I'm off this job.

Paint~paint~painting~~

And I was done. So I put everything in the bathroom and started cleaning stuff. Then somebody texted me. A number I didn't know.

???: Assalamualaikum..
Me: Waalaikumussalam..
???: Buat apa tu?
Me: Cat bilik.
???: Oh..busy ea. Sori.
Me: (puts the phone away and continues cleaning up)

When I thought no more distractions were going to emerged another person called. I spoke to soon. *sigh*
~Phone ringing~ *Hajar*
I answered the call and we went like bla..bla..blaaa.. for a few minutes and ended the conversation. As soon as I finished cleaning up the rollers and brush, I marched to my room and got my clothes to change after I bathed. I took my phone and replied to whoever that's pranking me on the other line.

Me: Btw, ni sape ni?

I took my shower right after sending that text message and I tell you that it was certainly heaven after all the pain of moving the roller up and forth over the walls. My arm was really aching and I can feel muscles building on my right arm. Eww, that's just weird dude. After getting dressed and drying my hair I received another text.

???: Peminat. Nk knal bleh?

I shrugged and answered this.

Me: =_=.... Tak berminat. xpayah la..

I couldn't care less so I continued with my Zuhur prayers. Right after that, I received another reply.

???: Smpai hati. Hmm.

I couldn't care even less than before so I dismissed the reply before it finally hit me. 'I know who this guy is..' It had to be a guy. No girl pulls a trick on me like that. And yeah, truth be told it was a guy and it was Usui. Amboi, dah beli nombor Celcom nak kelentong aku dulu. Haha..

I had my really late lunch and laughed with Bu watching tv before facing my allergic reaction 2 hours after that. My reaction delayed when it only started to happen on 6.00 pm although I've finished my work and got bathed around 4 o'clock.

Well, yeah. I had trouble breathing and I was coughing like crazy. My heart really felt pain and my chest was tightening. I had trouble breathing through my nose so I did it with my mouth. I remembered that I haven't done my Asar prayers so I quickly got myself ready and did that. Ohh, if I'm going to die let it be after I do my prayers(teruk kan? bila rasa nak mati baru ingat Allah. don't follow me people). I was wheezing terribly afterwards and dad gave me some medication to loosen up the reaction. It took some time for me to feel any better and during those moments I really felt like dying.

Not being able to breath properly with my heartbeat going crazy and not getting enough oxygen, I really thought that was the end of me. I was afraid to go to sleep, scared that I would die the next moment. Oh Allah was Most Merciful. I was able to withstand until Maghrib prayers so I did that as soon as possible. My nose was horrible and I was almost drooling. I couldn't move my lips to recite my surah properly but I did all that I could. Every time I sujud I felt nauseous and I couldn't breath at all.

It was those moments when you thought that it was the end.

Alhamdulillah. Allah gave me another chance to live and breath today. By midnight I was feeling much, much better. Alhamdulillah. Praises be only to Allah. Only to Him. And only because Allah wants us to live that we do today.

So mum and dad forbids me to do any more of painting and said he will continue the upper part which I have not done yet on the weekends. It was a lesson to be learned. So take a moment and count your blessings people. How many times has it been that you were in this death situations that Allah has grabbed you from that danger and let you live and breathe today?

Alhamdulillah..

2012-02-09T22:37:00.002+08:00

Let's just say I had things going and I was able to attain something good.

Praise to Allah for everything.

Alhamdulillah..

Seems true enough.

2012-02-09T22:36:00.000+08:00

Okay, a bit freaky that it's mostly true.

Well, what the heck.

Haha..

Aler, Izni, OU and Me

2012-02-08T16:42:00.000+08:00

Last Monday I went out with Aler and it was a great time. Aler brought Izni along (she was her housemate) and we had fun touring around OU, tiring our legs and using each and every guide map we can find along the way. It was my first time returning back to my favourite hotspot (my 3-year-old hotspot; very long time ago, I know). We went to MPH and Popular bookstores to get Aler's and Izni's Medical Dictionary but it really was a bummer since it was all sold out.

I'm glad though that I was able to grab hold onto the first instalment of the Old Kingdom Series by Garth Nix, Sabriel. Reading it right now. *wink2*

Then we went all around OU just to go find its foodcourt. It was one hell of a trip with my stomach aching and playing Heavy Metal vibrations along the way. It was an exercise but it sure paid off when we were able to reach.. Dudududum~~

Yaaah! Itulah tempat kami melantak makanan selepas penat men'derat' satu OU. Penat tak terkata, waktu tu dah membongkok-bongkok lapor. Haha..

On the left is Aler and besides her is Izni. Aler told me that her new college friends call her Qilah or Najla' but there is one ex-BP (MRSM Batu Pahat) student that calls her Aler but the nickname wasn't that contagious and had not spread yet. Not yet. Heee...

This was like the view we had from our port in the food court. Busy? Very.

That's me and I look freakin' chubby, people! I really should get that diet and exercising daily rather than occasionally.

Really liked the bridge. Walaupun aku ni dungu sikit bab-bab architecture. Macam kukuh but when there was like a group of people walking on it, we could feel the vibration. Felt as though we could fall anytime so we quickly went off the platform and made ourself out since everything's done and finished. Takut ko Sab..

It was a nice day so thanks to A'qilah Najla' and Izni Azzyati. Let's chill out together some other time. Especially when I get more money so that I can treat you AWESOME people. Haha...

Aler, MISS YOU!!

2012-02-03T23:46:00.000+08:00

Tadi, I was on the phone with Aler a.k.a A'qilah Najla' binti Abdullah Sani. My roommate, my classmate, and we're in the same homeroom. I simply miss her so much! 20 minutes and 41 seconds on the phone isn't enough so I'm gonna meet her next Monday! Hopefully. Heee... Really hope that mom and dad's going to give permission~ InsyaAllah. Tomorrow, IMKEDA. So takleh kuar. Ahad, Maulud Nabi S.A.W. So, Monday it is. Heeeeeeeeeeeee......

Ohmigosh,omigosh,omigosh. Can't wait!!

One Direction. This is not real.

2012-02-03T22:34:00.000+08:00

(O_O)

That was my expression when I started viewing 1D (One Direction) official page in FB. This is all thanks to Una. Haha.. It was awkwardly weird for me to have this tingling feeling like, 'OMGosh, sumpah hensem giler!' and like 'Oh, ak kene panah cupid.'(well, that's just cheesy). Like lots of my friends (girls la, takkan laki kot..) are really hitting on the boys ya know.

Seriously, their age are even close to mine! I can feel the attraction.

(=_=)

Now this is just weird.

I have never been that 'into' things (even k-pop boy bands have their limit and BTR isn't that oggly anyway) but 1D is really something. I watched their Video Diary 4 and there's this funny and cuteness and charming and annoyingly handsome thing about the guys. Like Louis' pigeon, Kevin. Like Harry's coolness(though I don't know if it's true or not). Like Niall's smile. Like Zayn's energy drink. Like Liam's witty personality. I like them. And they sing well too. Who knew that my sudden curiosity at Youtube got me hooked with these guys. Haha.. Macam fangirl ape la ak nih. But seriously people, their voices are really good and they sing pretty darn well. Boys, don't hate them. They're cool so give their music a chance 'kay?

Oh, this is One Thing (Acoustic Version). I just love this song. *wink2*

You go guys!

(From left: Louis, Zayn, Niall, Liam, Harry)

Upsie Daisie

2012-02-03T08:16:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum dunia!

Yaaah, saya bangun awal.

Selepas subuh, saya tak tidur.

Alhamdulillah...

Sekarang,

perut saya meroyan lapar.

Usshh, kritikal dah ni...

makanan...~

Panjang-panjang-panjang

2012-02-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

I like to write my blog posts really long.

Really, really long.

So peeps, kalo rajin,

baca sampai habis.

Haha...

La mia FAMIGLIA

2012-02-02T22:22:00.001+08:00

So I've finally finished the essay and Hanif has given a thumbs up for it. He said it was good since it came right from my heart. A sincere writing or so. That's what he said. Or was it just that he was scared of me like what he stated during his speech of 'The Most Influential People in TGB'. Well, who knows?

In my essay, I had stated about my BWP family. My beloved children. Husband? Can I admit that I am a divorcee though my ex-husband usually comes and visit? Haha... So let's begin the little tale of my wonderful happy family. Hehe..

The one above is Ahmad Khawarizmi. He's the President of the Students' Disciplinary Council a.k.a LDP (Lembaga Disiplin Pelajar) and is also the Vice President I (Naib Pres I, can't really find a better name. haha..). Ahmad is a very weird person because he has all this mixed up feelings and emotions (suka mencebik, blur, ngade-ngade dan yang seangkata dengannya) despite being one of the leading characters in the leadership arena of TGB. Despite all his weird antics, I respect him both as a person and a leader. When he first got the post he seemed all nice and a bit soft but my guess was wrong. He can get on a rampage when he means it and his face compliments the anger. Don't be fooled by the picture above. Haha.. He is responsible, helpful, nice and obedient (well, all my kids have to or they feel my wrath. muawhahaha!) and I can count in him when I need to.

Now this punk is Ammar Faris ( I can't put his full name coz I'm scared I'd get it wrong and that goes to all of you other people as well.) and he once hold the portfolio as our Welfare Bureau. He's a rugby player though that doesn't explain much why he has a gay face (kinda. haha...) but he's quite reliable at times. He has a way with the ladies because of his face or words or I don't know what charm he uses but he's good at that. Ammar is really close to guys and well. He's one of the people which I practice my Japanese with. Still remembered when I taught him the word Kakoi which means cool. Then he made an expression like, 'Watashiwa kakoi desu?' Haha.. Ammar, ammar. I can't explain more. He does his work good though most of the time he's missing. Can't blame him for whatever behind-the-scene work he claims to do but he's trustworthy. *wink2*

Thay guy who's pleasingly smiling at you folks is Mr. Azizi Rafie, macho-handsome-sweet-guy-extraordinaire~ Or so the girls once say. Azizi or Rafie(I like to call him by this name) comes from Negeri Sembilan and is one of the stars in the school's soccer team. You've guessed it people. He was our Sports and Recreational Bureau. Rafie was loved by seniors, that's why he got the highest votes for the guys part during the BWP election. He has a girlfriend which he makes public which I won't mention her name here (eh, gi tanya tuan punya badan la kalo sibuk nak tau) and I am her mak mentua or so I claim, haha.. Rafie is same like Ammar but his disease is cronic. He seldom comes to meetings, seldom do brainwashing. Most of the time I wish I could write him a deathwish while crawling under his bed holding a scythe. You can't say he never finishes the job (because he denies it better he even starts it ) but when he does it, he does it well. Really well in fact. But whenever he's there in our group of BWP, it's as though the family is complete. Lets you feel the warm fuzzy feeling in it. Haha.. He claims that he's my most 'cutest' son ever. *ROTFL*

Syarifah Siti Nur Fadhilah binti Wan Abd Wahab. Yes, her name sumpah panjang but we like to call her Ella. Dear sweet Ella comes from Sarawak (jauh kan???) and she's from a well-brought-up family which are FREAKIN $$$$! Haha.. Comes from my mouth of coursela exaggerating lebih but she really does have a good life. Alhamdulillah for her. With that much of $$ signs, she once was the committee's Honorary Treasurer. Ella's a good speaker, a lovable and cheerful person, a braces girl (but she took it off late last year) yet she was always strict with her decisions and stands for her beliefs. Is never a good quitter but she is a helpless romantic. *wink2* Ella won Silver and another award (which I can't remember as well due to my lack of memory) during the I-SWEEP competition held last year in Texas, USA. She has clear dreams and goals that she wants to grasp that not most of us youth have. All the best to her aye. You go girl~!

Introducing~~~~ (drumrolls)
Eza Salwa binti Hj Rohani.!!
Easy name to remember, never easy of a person to forget. Eza once hold her portfolio as the Food and Health Bureau. She was outgoing, OUTSTANDING and witty with her work and she really is one of those people that I am glad to have around in our SRC committee. She likes to have fun, make jokes, give out surprise birthday parties and work her butts off in her job. I can say that my friends enjoyed working under her as she was a spectacular person. Eza is such a sociable person that many find it easy to communicate with her either boys or girls. She was a favourite. I really, really like her work and I LOVE her attitude. She would always give advices on how to handle jobs and especially Hafid (Mr. Pressie) because she has the experience (she was once a Deputy like me in MRSMKK). She has a big heart and an even bigger smile. What's not to love about Eza Salwa?

Enjoy the face people and laugh till your heart's content 'cause this guy is used to it.
Mohd Faiz Aiman b. Zaabar (oh, I still remember Hafid saying it in a Jawa-ish kinda way) is the guy you'd wish you had spanked when he opens his mouth. He was our ICE bro (Information Communication Exco) and he likes to spout nonsense and even if he does give good remarks, it was just a re-statement of what another person had said. I used to dislike his behaviour and would have destroyed him most of the time but I was patient and used my head to think twice before demolishing him. Isma's 'kesayangan' and Hafid's best-man. He was a punk that needed some slapping but in the end I found that he's not all foul and useless as it seems. Faiz would always come to Seke whenever I call for the BWPs, he would always be there. Never missed a meeting as far as I can remember. He was good and he is responsible. I like this part of him and I ain't goin' further 'cause I don't wanna spill crap in my blog. Haha.. Good job Faiz, you've made a good impression in me after all.

Mr. President, Nur Hafid bin Mohadi. *(=_=).....* (Like, I needed to make that face first. Haha...)
Charmer, Sweet-talker I. Likes to text me but I ignore him (muawhahahahahahaha~!! gelak over terlebih.)
Let's see.. He's a rugby player like Ammar. A PKBM member like Sam. An annoying person by making himself unavailable at times of need. I believed that at first he used to take his work for granted. We even had a special meeting to resolved the issue about him. Though as time past, he became a leader that I can have faith on, that I can lean upon whenever times get hard, that I can trust to get the job done. He wasn't perfect. Nobody was. There were times when I'd wish I have a hammer to hit him and times when I wish he'd come out of nowhere and tell me how to get it right. It was plausible to applaud when he suddenly changed for the better. Started leading the SPM pledge. Started singing the Pelita song. Started to remind us about lots of things and became Ustaz Sabri Jr. Started to act more maturely. That was those times when I simply was proud to have his as President. Well, even if he screws up I am his Deputy so it's my duty to clean after him. Righto?

Isma Fildza Hadzry.
Charmer, Sweet-talker II. A good copy of Mr. Pressie. Twins. Well, not that identical despite that part of them. Isma was Vice President II (Naib Pres II) and is the Head of Bureau.. He takes pride in his job although he once hated being a BWP having to seclude his personal life altogether. During my form four years, I would be like (=_=) when I had to work with him and we even got into a fight during that preposterous time when he made a fool of our committee's pride by showering shame (tanya dia la dia buat ape. taknak cakap~! heee...). But last year, I was (^-^) for him because he did an AWESOME job. How he and Hafid manipulated words to convince our headmistress to agree on X-Camp. How he managed to do a good job with emceeing the Teacher's Day celebration. How he trained the kids(cam bebudak sangat je junior aku) to emcee our Formal Dinner. He did great. Oh, he's a debater, a finalist in the MRSM debate championship. No wonder. Well, we see no waste in yer skills man. Haha..

This is another superb daughter of mine. Haha.. Nurul Izzah is the champion of Public Speaking Competition during Nadwah Islamiah 2010. She is an excellent Bio tutor (well, sebab tu la cikgu pilih dia jadi Guru Muda an? haha..) Izzah is an excellent person to befriend with and she is such a CUTE person. She was the first one to actually call me Mama. At first, I thought that it was no harm but suddenly it contagiously spread to the whole family. So yeah, I'm Mama or Mummy or Nenek(Eza calls me that, the guys sometimes). I get lotsa names in TGB, it wouldn't get any worse. Izzah was our General-Secretary (I don't know why Google Translator gave me that for Setiausaha Agung, makes Izzah look gruesome) and she surely does her job marvellously. She did. Ask the people. One of the workaholics in our committee which is in par to Sam. Izzah wrote and typed and printed and signed a bundle of letters. There were even some she had to redo. To no prevail she did it. One thing I couldn't stand about her was how obedient she was. When I asked, she'd be doing it, and when I said "No, it's okay," she has no second thoughts to ask another word. See? Obedient isn't she? Izzah is one of those girls which would suit any guy. She's a whole package and I can say she's worth all the wooing you guys do.

Now this is Amirul Neezam. He was our Religious Bureau back in those days (eceh, cam dah lama sangat konon..) and he was a favourite amongst the students. Seriously, remember Mr. Incredible people? Haha.. Memories. Neezam is the only guy in our committee originating from up north. He's superb at giving talks though he never admits to be better than Wan. Neezam got the title 'Haji' due to his visit to Makkah and performing Hajj at a young age of 16. Maybe there are other people who have done it before him but his was made public so even the teachers call him by that name. Neezam headed the BADAR (Badan Agama Dakwah dan Rohani) and he managed it splendidly well by the looks of it (ask the BADARs, they know their boss). Neezam was never reluctant to do work but he was always busy with his pack thinking about this and that, students behaviour in the surau and out of the surau, and Nuqaba' stuff( with Wan la of course. Pengasas Majlis Nuqaba' an..). I remembered when there were times that he would be the laughing stock of the school when he performed weird stuff, stuff that a President BADAR was supposedly not to do(since Fattah never did those stuff). Well who are we to be judgemental. Neezam has his own unique qualities and so do all of us. Who says that you can't be preaching and be a star soccer player altogether?

Samiraaaah!!!!
Yes, people this is workaholic Samirah Zulkifli alright. Let's say she's a stupendous leader, an active, energetic, strict, stern PKBM member(she went to the Nationals okay..) and an awesome director! She does her work like freakin well ever since the first time she had to touch it. Sam once holds the post as our Cultural Bureau and she nailed all the work perfectly. She has the most hardworking committee members in her bureau. They do AWESOME work whole-heartedly. There was never anything she had done with half of her heart. Sam always had a hard time juggling her time since she does so many work and that makes her the most-likely person to suffer from an emotional breakdown. She would cry, she would just stay silent, she would weep in her sleep but she never gave up. Oh, she also has a special somebody which also gives her another reason to suffer an ache in her heart at certain times in her life but they're cool and they never did break off longer than enough. She causes trouble, she mends it. She never runs away. She's a brave girl. Mamma's proud of you dear!

Here we have Nursyahirah binti Ahmad Shukri a.k.a my classmate a.k.a my neighbour a.k.a the Academeic Bureau 10/11. Syira here is a girl who is currently addicted to K-pop and the K-culture since Malay boys had broke her heart (well, I turned to a K-maniac due to the same reason too) and is currently staying in Pantai Dalam, KL. Syira is a very nice girl yet she has always been rather timid actually. At times, her passion sparks like fireworks while sometimes they simmer down and become the normal sparklers. She gets busy when SPM became nearer and since our new HEA came to TGB introducing certain programmes and vision to instill in the students. She worked her butts off though she needs reminders and that's why I'm her neighbour. Hee.. Syira was always so sensitive when it came to Kurnia Session. Nobody should come late. That's why she skips breakfast just to make it on time to class. But during our reign, we always had Kurnia Session in the Seke. Syira faces a bundle of problems occurring not only in her personal life but also study. She was down in the deepest part of the sea yet she never admitted to defeat. She tried her best and insyaAllah, I know she'll shine back once again.

Dadadadummm~!! Yeah, the final of them all~ Mulyani Abu Bakar!!

This is Yani, say hi Yani. (macam boleh.. pfft..) My sweet Girls, Princess Bureau, whatever you call 'em. (biro puteri sebonarnye...) She is like *hoot-hoot* *while raising hands in a weird 'Yani' kinda way. Haha.. Yani is a gangsta. Yes peeps, I am not lying. She's a mafia I tell you. A WARLORD. Okay.. That was over exxagerating. Hee.. Well, she is rough and tough and she'll beat the crap outta you if you play her for some sissy ninny. Yani is stern and strict yet playful and cute. The boys like to play around her assuming that she might not feel that much over-sensitive on issues(yalaah, ganas maa..). Still remember the part in D.Ben where she wacked Azizi on the back 'cause he was teasing her or something. It was loud. Kinda makes you think twice to make Yani angry, feel her wrath if you try to. When I give work, Yani does it good, good. When I don't give work, she asks for it. Good,good too. It's because Yani always gets the least work, that's why she wants work. One more thing, Yani is SUPER-HOT. She is. I am sure. Why? Because I said so. Good enough reason? I believe so. Don't be afraid to talk to her though, if you talk nice she'll do the same. She's good at reciprocating things so don't say she's all bad aye.

Well, that wraps up my story of my SRC family that is surprisingly long (if you read all, I salute you!). To tell you the truth, I postponed this post since December last year. Alhamdulillah I completed it today. Syukur, syukur. Hope you like it. Enjoy the read!

With love,

Mummy

We want you to follow this blog people. (Okay, ignore Azizi. He's just too shocked by the camera.)

p.s: If my kids want me to take this post out, I have to. They have a say, okay.

p.ps: Thank you to each of the sponsors for the photos. (hehe.. does fb counts?)

p.p.p.s: This post is written with true feelings. If it may cause anybody to fell upset, I deeply apologize.

Koizora, Tears, Reflection

2012-02-01T00:23:00.002+08:00

I've finally finished watching Koizora last Thursday and finished Abhorsen last Sunday which gives me room to finish watching 26 episodes of EVA and 2 of its movies as well. Seriously guys, Syamin was soooo right. I cried like I've never cried before. Was it how many times? I can't remember.

SPOILER PEOPLE. FOR THOSE WHO HAVEN'T WATCHED, I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE IF YOU DON'T GET THE MOOD WHEN YOU WATCH IT.

The story was about a high school girl named Mika who experiences love for the first time with thug with light-coloured hair named Hiro (well, the guy's just a common gangsta delinquent, that's all). The guy found her cellphone and returned it to the last place it was supposedly to be spotted. In between books of a rack in the library? Yeah, a good spot to keep it hidden huh. So, Mika finally found her phone when it rang and as normal people answered the call expecting that it was her friend (whatever he name was, I forgot) called her. Though at the end of the line was actually Hiro who kept his identity secret, saying "Naishou!" every time Mika asks his name. She received frequent calls without knowing who the guy was (sanggup pulak layan? kalo aku dah lama letak. tapi tak jadi cerita la nanti kan?) and finally was able to meet him on the day after her birthday at the pool in their school only to find out that it was a blonde thug. ""=_=

In the end, the guy swept away her heart with a sweet smile and a lovable side to him beside his gangsta-ish looks and she fell for him. The guy calls her in class and they skipped school. (OMGosh, sanggup dia?) And they did 'that' at Hiro's place. (OMGeee????!!!) In the end, Mika left because Hiro accidentally mumbled his ex name, Saki. Mika wanted to ask, but she trusted Hiro more.
When I started watching the story for half an hour, no deep reaction came to me. Bila nak nangis nih? But I spoke too soon.

Mika then got raped! *(=_=) tak nangis lagi..*
Hiro beat the crap out of the guys who did it who eventually told Saki paid them to do so. ehem...
Mika was blatantly accused of being a slut and somebody scribbled her phone number on each of the class' blackboard. Hiro backed her up. They did 'that' again in the school library. *(0_o) OMGosh, takde tempat lain ke?*
Mika was confirmed to impregnate Hiro's child and he's FREAKINGLY happy and wanted to keep the child. Mika was happy too. Eh, should I be happy?
Hiro goes telling his parents of his decision and ends up kneeling in front of Mika's to get their approval. He dyed his hair black again. *(^_^) lagi handsome maaa~*

Then, Mika got an ABORTION. *(O_o) OMFishingNet!!*
Hiro and Mika cried. * I cried too~~~ Waaah~~!*
Then they made like a vow to come every year on Christmas Eve (the day Mika faced abortion) to the spot in a park where Hiro planted back the flowers he once picked (more like strangled out of the soil. hey, the roots were still dangling on it!) and made it like a symbolic place where their baby died. It was a 'she' by the way.
Suddenly out of nowhere, Hiro wanted to broke up with Mika. *(O_O) WTFish!*
First it was in the library. *(-_-) not crying..*
Then it was at the river. * I cried again~~~ Waaaaah~!!*

Mika's friend (the one I can't remember her name) wanted her to forget Hiro so they went to a party and met up with other guys. One was interested in Mika and followed her to the park for her annual visit.
Mika was touched so they got in a relationship.
One day, Mika's family was facing desperate times when her parents got in a fight and wanted to get a divorce.
She goes to Yuu's place (her new boyfriend) and mumbled some mumbo jumbo and both of them were able to fix the situation.
The upcoming Christmas Eve, Mika met Hiro after so many months not meeting him.
They parted ways and Mika was never able to see him again.

Until one day... Jeng, jeng, jeng~~~~~!
The year after graduation, after enrolling in Keimei University (Yuu's uni as well), Mika met Nozomu at the park during Christmas Eve.
She found out that Hiro was having cancer! *(O_o) Jengjengjeng~*
Yuu caught up to Mika when she said she wanted to go and meet Hiro. Yuu tried to convince Mika but she wanted Hiro more. (See, hatsukois are hard to forget maaa..)
Yuu let her go. * I cried AGAIN. Waaaaaaaahhh~~~!!!!!*
(Sumpah baik gila Yuu lepaskan dia. Sedih, memang sedih bangat siiih~~~)

Mika met Hiro at the hospital and she keeps on saying "Baka!" to him.
They talked. He only has 3 months to live! *I cried yet again. Waaaaaaaaahhhhhhh~~~~!!!!!!*
So, Mika told her parents that she wanted time off her studies to nurse Hiro. Seems that they agreed so she did what she wanted.
Hiro was out of the hospital one fine day (I freakin don't know why) and they went to the river where they 'officially' broke up before.
They got married although not legal 'cause Mika wanted to be 'special' of some sort. Hiro coughed badly. Admitted he 'loved' Mika and she was happy. (See, they kept saying daisuki and never aishiteru so when Hiro said aishiteru here, Mika cam gila babeng happy.)
*Yes, I cried again and again. WAAAaaaaaaahhh~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!*

Dah nak ending nih.
So when Hiro asked Mika what was it like when he died, Mika told him he'd go to heaven but Hiro wanted to become the sky and watch over his beloved. Mika answered with a remark,"Stalker." And they laughed.
Before going for his check-up, Hiro told Mika to get his photos printed and handed her his digital camera.
Mika had this weird feeling and right after she got the photos printed, Hiro's sister called.
Mika scramed back to the hospital and there was this emotional distraught happening in the movie and outside. (In particular, it was me crying.) *Crying a whole lot again. WaaaaAAAAaaaahhhh~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!*
Right before Hiro closed his eyes for good, he told Mika to 'Smile'.
Mika did that and with that final glimpse of her smiling, Hiro died.
*Who said I stopped crying?! It became intense. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!*
Mika didn't attend the funeral but was given a diary of Hiro's.
She went to the river and tried to kill herself but eventually was stopped by this twoo white pigeons or dove or birds I don't know which species.
She dropped the book and it flipped to a page where Hiro doodled a picture of himself with Mika and their child together. It wasn't a masterpiece but it was able to make my eyes watery again.
*and so I cried again when I thought I wouldn't anymore. WaaaAAAAAaaaaaaAAAaaaaHhhh~~~~!!!!!*

At the end of the movie, I thought to myself, "Wouldn't it be better if I cried like this during my solat?"

Guess what?
I did.

So I cried during my prayers and after my prayers.
I kept thinking that Allah LOVES us so much and he never asks for anything back.
Allah will always back us up whenever we needed him.
Allah always watches over our every actions.
Like what Hiro wanted to do when he died.
But Allah never DIES.
HE has always been there. Watching us. Caring for us. Giving us his utmost blessings.
But..
We always do forget he does all of those.
So I cried, and I cried so much that my eyes were all red and my nose accepted the same fate too.
I was glad though. That Allah made me remember Him even when I'm watching a movie.
Allah's love is utmost divine. One that has no comparison.

Alhamdulillah. Syukur Ya Allah.

B.O.O.K.W.O.R.M

2012-01-26T09:56:00.000+08:00

Back to being a bookworm again.

Abhorsen, here I come!

New Treatment: Silence

2012-01-25T22:04:00.001+08:00

I had always been a very loud person and I like to say what comes to my mind. Most of the comments I say deserves a SLAP in the face. Well, I don't care. That's what I think. So if I smile and say nothing's wrong, I mean it. Though lately, I've gone over the tantrum I usually have because I don't want to make people upset with me even though I AM with them.

For example, how I handle the times whenever mum or dad put on a scolding or gives their 'advice'. I would just shut up. Literally I did. But I'm really horrible with hiding my facial expression. Macam what Zinnie once said to me, "Aku benci doh muka ko Sab. Macam muka nak makan penampar!" Even Mira second the motion agreeing with what Zinnie said. Sorry people, that's just me.

So when dad called me to show me a freakin' documentary about 'Sleep', I almost slumped to my knees trying hard to keep that long sigh I had lingering through my mouth. My chest was tight trying to incredibly resist my urge to bang the TV into smithereens. My eyes widened but I wasn't that of an expert to hide the cross look on my face.

'I am not the old Sabreena. I am not the old Sabreena. I will not talk back. I will keep quiet.'

I looked at the screen ignoring my dad's explanation of whatever he thinks was good. I know it was. Just wasn't in the mood to hear. Then he asked, "Why are you so upset?" I answered briefly, "I want to read."
I excused myself and marched back to my room. Trying my best to vent on typing words rather than blurting out comments that will make me regret later.

Before, I had exploded on Sonia for spilling carbonated Kickapoo on my laptop although it was just small spill on the edge. I just want to be alone. Tomorrow's a big day. Do you think I don't know? Do you think I intentionally wanted to prepare everything late? Parents, I know what I should do. You talking ain't proving any good for me. Shut the crap and let me think on my own. I'm just not in the mood. So I'll stay silent.

Silent.

for the time being, shut up people.

I wonder...

2012-01-25T00:50:00.001+08:00

Kenapa ramai sangat orang suka post sal cinta-cinta ah? Selalunya cinta terhadap manusia? Kenape ye?

I wonder.

Hmmm... Jom kenal cinta Allah.

The Greatest Love of All.

Cinta Teragung.

最高の愛.

Ceyh, nk kena ada jugak bahasa jepun dia. Haha.. Trimas Google Translator~!

Out to Midvalley~

2012-01-25T00:36:00.000+08:00

Today, Su and I went to Midvalley simply because we had never gone out ever since school holidays started. She's working as a clerk at her mom's office in KL so it's hard to find the right time to hang out. Gladly its the Chinese New Year Celebration going on so two days off work was a good time to chill with her. Ammar tagged along to. He just had to come. Haha... Oh, it was also because I asked Syauqi out just because he was my 'little' big brother. ;p Oooh.. Kak Asha was there too. Seriously, lama tak jumpa dia. She looks fit though she said she gain weight. Shuuks, I gained more.

Su was her usually bucket of bubbly. Full of life and laughter. Simply my best friend.

Ammar was insanely perverted as always.

Syauqi keeps blackmailing me just because SPM results wasn't out yet. Though it was always nice to play around with him. Concerned, cute, little Onii-chan. *wink*wink*

Kak Asha. Cheese Maniac. Animal lover. Remember the dust bunnies? So kawaii~ Heee... =3

Things I bought:

Koizora (Sky of Love) Cd

Abhorsen (Last book for the Old Kingdom Series) by Garth Nix

Things I bought for people:

Secret Recipe Cakes

(Oreo Cheese, Chocolate Indulgence for me and my siblings)

(Black Forest Cheese for Syauqi)

(New York Cheese for Kak Asha)

I ended my day with an afternoon nap. So, tak bagus kan? Haha.. Still sad that I couldn't get anything for Su. Oh well, I'll buy her stuff during our next month trip during Jo Neill's birthday. Hee... *wink*wink*

duit nk dpt mne woooh?

Growing older. aheem mature.

2012-01-24T01:58:00.001+08:00

Time never stops and it never will until the time where it's finally The End of the world which will soon be happening sooner or later. That much depends on what Allah will decide for He knows everything. Today as usual, I woke up at my normal time of wake *which I will never tell you people when* and thought that I needed something to enlighten that dark shroud covering my heart (seriously, I have been tainted tremendously these hols). I ended up opening the TV and watching whatever was on.

*click*

Oooh.. I Used to Be Fat. Nice.. *watched*

*click*

Ooooh.. Music Bank. 5.45 pm. Lambat lagi.. Tengok citer laen dulu.

*click*

CH114 TVAH

Tazkirah Asar

Hmm... Cam best je. Dah lame x dengar tazkirah nih. Tengokla sementara tunggu azan Asar.

And so I watched it. It was pretty interesting. They had 3 tazkirahs lined up for that half-an-hour slot, two were in Arabic presented by the Arabs themselves and one was in Malay.

Tazkirah One.

Be Grateful. Bersyukurlah.

The main issue in this tazkirah was about being grateful to Allah for everything and believing that each of the 'nikmat' comes from Allah and not from anybody else. The Ustaz said that even in the Holy Qur'an the first Surah, al-Fatihah adresses us to be gratefull to Allah. Al-Hamdu, what he says is a sign that shows that we must be grateful towards Allah in everything we do. Rasulullah SAW was a very grateful person. After he finishes eating, he will lick his fingers and make sure that none of the food is wasted. That is the main reason of his actions and it is a sunnah to follow. The Ustaz said that if we were ikhlas in saying Al-Hamdu to Allah many times, Allah will increase what we already have. Thre were a few other examples but I can't quite remember.

Tazkirah Two.

Good Practices in Praying. Amalan Baik dalam Solat.

This was a very interesting tazkirah indeed. The Ustaz here started his speech (actually it was when I turned the channel back on after watching MTV's I Used to Be Fat) by inviting people to replenish their wudhu' when starting a new Solat i.e Subuh, Zohor, Asar, Maghrib, Isya' prayers although you practically still have your wudhu' on from when you first took it. Based on a hadith (I can't remember siapa yang riwayatkan, correct me if I'm wrong), "That whom ever replenishes his ablutions every time before doing their fardhu prayers, there will be written for him 10 good things." Something like that.. (ayat men tibai je. xleh blah.. haha...) The Ustaz also said that we should doa' each time we wash the parts of the body when we are taking our wudhu'. Like for example, when you wash your hands think of taking your 'buku amalan' (don't know the perfect translation) with your right hand and not from your left hand. When you wash your feet, pray that when you walk on 'Titian Sirat' your feet will have a strong grip on it and you will walk fast yet calm. Plus: Neezam once said that when you was your face, pray that your face will glow during Akhirat at 'Padang Mahsyar' so that Rasulullah SAW will recognize us as his ummah and give syafaat to us. The Arab Ustaz also said that you should buy a suitable clothing specially made to use when you pray. People nowadays usually buy fancy clothing for certain occasions or celebrations. Make your prayer time a celebration and where the finest that you can. Buy a perfume that you can use whenever you pray as well. Psychologist says that there is a connection between fragrances and human actions that can cause a positive effect to the mind. Besides that, when your praying make sure that you focus on it. Put all your troubles and thoughts about life behind you. Enjoy the time you have with Allah. The problem we have now is not about the number of people praying. Its about the number of people who are really khusyuk in their solat.

Tazkirah Three.

Cara-cara Solat Berjemaah. Ways to perform Congregation Prayer.

Okay, I came in a bit late at this one so I didn't had that much of an input. The Malay Ustaz said that for an Imam to change to another Imam, the person to be the new Imam should stand on the right of the Imam for men, and for women on the right. Again, correct me if I'm wrong. During Rasulullah's time when congregation prayers were done, young girls would pray in front of the women as in to avoid any harm happening to the younger girls such as abduction, so on and so forth.

Well, I guess that wraps up all the knowledge I can share today. So what does it have to do with the title? Hmmm... I'll answer that here.

When you grow older, you think more maturely. You learn more so you should share more. You realize your mistakes so you should learn to avoid repeating it. Nobody's perfect. Yeah, lame line. But its true people. I am not one and so are you. So lets stop being like really whiny kids and start thinking.

Seriously, what the crap am I saying? Sumpah xde relation. Astaghfirullah....

All Hail Housewives!!

2012-01-18T22:11:00.000+08:00

With all due respect, I would like to acknowledge that all housewives are AWESOME. Friggin awesome!

These past few days I have been doing some household chores and seriously they are not that simple of a task. Sure cooking and sweeping the house, washing and folding the clothes are all normal things for any women to do. Especially people like me, who is basically just an unemployed young lady technically bored to death. So, being the good daughter, I did those chores and it was not such a breeze after all. Yesterday I organized the clothes for the whole family. I was practically running all over the house putting things at their respective closets. Not to mention that I was fasting that day. It was tiring I tell you. Seriously, IT WAS.

Today Bu and I made Chicken Rice. It was good despite the fact that it was our first attempt at making it. Mom's Hainanese Chicken Rice paste sure did the trick. Not a dime wasted indeed. I mopped the kitchen and like always, did the dishes on a daily basis. When I think about it again, I seemed to finally understand how hard it is to be a full-time housewife. Ladies, its not easy as pie. But it was an enjoyable time. It made the house a whole lot tidier and the feeling of getting everything nicely arranged gives a satisfaction to me. Reminds me of the time I would clean up the Seke at TGB and how I cleaned my classroom in KT before. Suddenly it popped in my mind.

"Why don't I become a housewife instead?"

Like people, how many bright minds decide to say that in the end?

Then again,

naaah..

It'll be a waste of the education I have. Let me just be The Good Wife. :)

I haven't been writing much have I?

2012-01-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

Omigosh.

I finally realized that I've been a dush for not being able to increase my posts last year. Just now, I went and took a look at the amount of posts I made last year and the year before. 65 posts- 2010, 19 posts- 2011. 19 only???!!

Waaaah~! I've gotten that lazy??!
Seriously, omigosh..
So, I shall not repeat the same mistake again this year. I promise I'll write more. Insyaallah.. I'll vent more of my life in my blog. Allah wills that is. Now it's time for Letter Bee and 07-ghost, so chao-chao dearies~

My Mr. Mystery..

2012-01-17T21:44:00.000+08:00

So, everybody has their own preferences as to who they like and who they want to end up with. To me, I've always wanted that perfect ~~husband~~ someone... A person that would love me as I am. Accept my all despite my craziness, crankiness, and weirdness. I know that it's definitely 'berangan tahap maksimum' when I say that I have already pictured him in my mind. How he'll look like, what his personality is, his family backgound, where I'm going to meet him and all those details on his past and present.

He would be at least two years older than me and he's taking engineering. Don't know the detailed course though. A brunette or maybe just the sleek black hair would be nice. His physique and facial expression would be like Lee Joon. That same smile would be lingering on his face. A Malaysian of course and a Muslim definitely. His home town would be in Perak, which part I don't know. He loves photography and eating Malaysian cuisine. The rest is history. There's too many version of his past and family background. I'll leave that unexplained. Haha...

It would be almost impossible to meet someone exactly like him. I've told about this 'dream guy' of mine to some people. They just say it's hysterically crazy to believe in such. Hafid even said that I'll never meet him. Despite all the negative comments, I will still grasp on this vague hope and belief that he does exist. And he's out there. Waiting for me. In the snow I'll meet him. How I'm supposedly to get close to him? I'll leave that up to fate to decide. If it ever came true. If it doesn't , then it's just not my luck. But for now, let me live with the expectation that it will.

Oh, I even have a theme song for him. One Direction-One Thing. Usui just think its annoying for me to even like this so-called 'gay' boy group. He hates such groups. Haha..

TGB. :)

2012-01-10T01:20:00.002+08:00

“Assalamualaikum…

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim…

Let’s begin with that. It’s the best word to start off anything.

Hi, my name’s Sabreena. I was born in the month of June 1994 or better known as 7^th Muharram 1415H. Another year, another story passes by and this year I’m ending my school years with a smile and a great ending, I hope.

Remembering the first baby steps I took in entering MJSC TGB, I was nobody. I began my life there as a normal student like everyone else with a mind-set that TGB-ians are the best humans alive as entering TGB is no easy task. Being a graduate from MJSCKT up at the East-Coast of Malaysia, I aspire to be somebody in this school; this new school that was marked as one of the best school in Malaysia. It was an ordinary dream but it was filled with colours nevertheless. I remembered my first day in the school when I broke into tears due to my youngest sister’s crying when I had to leave for school. She always cried whenever I had to go back to school, but this time I felt like crying too. Because of my tears, I was able to meet my first new friend, Amira Syahida who was my roommate and classmate for the next two years. Then, I got to know A’qilah Najla’ and Siti Nur Nadiah who I nicknamed Sifu. Together we became the residents of

FB-02. That night, I met more of my friends especially my classmates. I remembered Syira who looked kind of emotionally sad scribbling in her notebook, Yaz who was the lively one, and all the other girls of 408. In the first week, I was given the title of Vice President for class 408. The class was a lively class but the boys and girls were kinda… separated. It was fun hearing the boys joking around and making fun of each other but most of the times it was just the guys fooling around while the girls had to stay cool (Like we were actually laughing inside. Man, they were funny!). The girls had their fair share of laughter too but it was always behind the guys. Living in 408 was bizarre and extremely funny. Sometimes they always worry me when the whole class wants to break the law but looking back, teenagers do like doing that and it was childish and precious memories wasn’t it?

Then I entered debating which was one of the best memories ever in my life. I did not only learn how to express my ideas better and clearer, think creatively and analysing analytically but I also made TONS of friends. Let it be in TGB or in other schools and MJSCs. I encountered friends and worthy opponents which then became good friends. I should thank Wan for being the freaky guy who helped me a lot in this arena and Isma who was always there to amuse me. I love my debate team, my seniors and my juniors. Our debate community is a family in itself. We even have the Legendary Sannin made up. Wan is Jiraiya, I’m Tsunade and Isma is Orochimaru. I don’t how we made that up but we did (Actually it was Isma and me. Wan knows next to nothing about the Legendary Sannin in Naruto. Haha..). It was hard debating as a TGB-ian since everyone has high expections about us. I can never forget how we suck during IDC 2010. I guess Wan was right about having chemistry between debaters because he did so well with Khairul, Amier, and Dinnie during Inter-MRSM the following July. We were lucky enough that during Inter-MRSM and IDC 2011, that chemistry was there between Azfar, Wan, Nadiah, Dali and me. We made a pretty darn team. I am so not kidding. We made it to the Octos at IDC but we were not that lucky during Inter-MRSM because Wan wasn’t able to make it to the final stage. It was sad because we were not superb as last year’s team. Hey, it was Amier Idris as PM. How can I beat him? Haha..

In the 2^nd Semester of 2010, I was elected as a member of the Student Representative Council and was given the responsibility, a sacred duty but most excruciating burden to take care which was to handle and build my batch. It was never an easy task but it was what I had to do. Besides, I signed up to become a BWP myself, nobody forced me to do so and it is so much better than becoming an LDP. No offense but I don’t think I would be able to enforce law on other people except for myself. Mira never liked it when I start to ‘clear’ the block. I would be shouting in front of my room and at the back, there would be another voice shouting back at me saying “Taknak clear!” Sometimes it was as loud as my voice. She did get on my nerves most of the times but gradually she was the one who changed a lot more than I did. She changed for the better and I am so happy for her. Becoming the voice of the students was never an easy job. I had to voice out their opinions and help the teachers to deal with their mischief as well. Sometimes I awkwardly think that I am a messenger girl for the teachers and the knight in brass armour for the students. Brass? Why brass? Maybe because I am not a good manipulator like Isma. Maybe so.

Nevertheless, being a BWP had thought me so many new things. I discovered that true power comes from the Almighty and you can do so much more with his help. Being labelled as a workaholic, I tend to do everything by myself so I always exert myself on these tasks and sometimes failed to pay full attention in class resulting to an under average mark on certain subjects. To tell you the truth, I once sored a 31 for my Add Maths paper. I was devastated and I mumbled for so long regretting my actions of not being able to do differentiation and integration correctly. Sifu had to bear with my constant agony but I wonder why I didn’t cry. Maybe I believed that everything happened for a reason. So I did bad during this test, should I give up? I don’t think it was the best solution so I did my best for my Add Maths. It was funny when I think back and remembered that I once put a 93 as my target for my 1^st Semester exams in 2011. Well I failed ridiculously to even get an 80 for the exam but hey, I got an A – so that was cool too wasn’t it?

But the one thing that made me realize that Allah was definitely the Creator was when I had to handle the Teacher’s Day celebration. The BWPs had to plan the best celebration ever since last year’s was a blast. It was hard keeping up to other’s expectation especially the teachers since they think that every year everything should be better if not, we’re losers. So I worked extremely hard. I had less sleep and I cover it up during classes. Then, one fine day Cikgu Hajah called me to ask me about the awards for the Teacher’s Day celebration. I obviously looked exhausted because she asked me why I was looking so weary. I just smiled and said it was nothing. Then she looked at me straight in the eyes and voiced her disappointment about us for not consulting the teachers first before deciding to place the awards. At that moment, tears were welling up in my eyes. I smiled again and gave her an overall explanation of the situation. She answered and countered every piece of reason I could give. I smiled, yet again and we both came into agreement about the best solution to solve everything. When I was about to leave her, she looked at me again. And as always, I dismissed myself with a smile and a salam. When I turned around, tears were streaming down my face. All of my troubles, worries and exhaustion came playing in my mind all at once. I had no one to convey my heart. I felt lost. I quickly exited the staff room and headed down to the office. My head was spinning and at that moment, all I thought was to run to the surau. I didn’t know why but I just had too. I bumped into Hafid and another one of his friend. He saw me crying and tried to know the reason behind my tears. I only glanced at him for a moment and walked pass him saying that it was nothing. He looked puzzled but I dismissed him. That time, I didn’t favour his presence. As soon as I reached the surau, the nearest person was Fathiah. I borrowed her telekung and prayed my Zuhur prayers. During that moment, I cried and cried like a little baby. Though in the middle of my calling to Allah, I felt a sense of calmness coming swiftly into my heart and slowly releasing all of the burden rooted deep within my soul. Allah heard me, I thought. At the end of my prayers, I kneeled on the praying mat and held my hands out. I started to recite my doa’ and again, tears went brimming down my cheeks. I let them flow as I began to talk to Allah. It was relieving and I savoured each moment of it. I loved it and I love Allah. Soon after that, I cried more often in my prayers. Aler brought me nearer to Allah during the SPM Trial. Because of her, I loved the surau and came to Allah’s side early whenever He called. I felt closer to Allah and regretted the time I wasted not remembering Him. He had always been there for me but why did I only found Him now. I was very grateful for having Aler to remind me back of the route I had to take. She was a precious friend and I always pray the best for her.

One thing that made me bear with all the hard work a BWP could have was my family and my house. The family that is in mind is my BWP family and the house is our beloved Secretariat a.k.a Seké. Since I always act as the biggest power in the family behind Hafid, everyone calls me Mummy or Mak or Mama. Sometimes Eza calls me Nenek. I accepted every darn thing they called me because I soon consider them as my daughters and sons. Although Hafid was supposedly to be my husband, I sometimes took him as my divorced husband. It was like playing house, only it was played by teenagers not kinds. I am so fond of each and every one of my BWPs. They are my strength; my OHANA. There were times when we would quarrel, have different opinions and just fed up with each other. I know at certain times they would think of me as a naggy old lady but I know that in the end we loved each other, in a family kind of way. La mia BWP famiglia is very, very special and the memories are invaluable. I’m grateful that I have two famiglia in TGB. I wonder why in KT, I did not have ties as such except with my homeroom. Hmm… Most probably because we are reaching that age when we should actually be getting married, if you look at it with a perspective of 50 years ago.

My batch? Let me smile widely first.

They are DA BOOM.

Why do I say so?

Reason 1: They cause my head to explode every time I think about their wrongs and how to solve all of them without having to discard my face and dignity.

Reason 2: They always like to crack my head open whenever it’s about their wants and needs.

Reason 3: They seldom try to think about the BWPs and BKPs lives.

Reason 4: They love to cause MAYHEM.

Reason 5: They are never contented with anything and everything they have.

BUT

One thing’s for sure.

I’ll never trade them for another batch AT ALL.

Why?

Because my batch is unique and I don’t think I should give a damn about what my head thinks about it. I am grateful that I was born in the year 1994. I am grateful that I am tied to batch 10/11 MJSC TGB. They may cause my head to explode but they taught me to be a strategist; calm and collected planning everything. They may cause my head to crack open but they taught me to think creatively to solve problems. They might be selfish but they taught me to be considerate. They may cause destruction but they help me finished the task that I had to do. They might never be contented but I’m grateful I had them. I love my batch and I know they do although some might hate me and only wishes for my death but I still love them. Despite all of the bad things, there are a few shining diamonds between the marvellous pearls. When I needed them they were always there and coloured my senior years of high school with memories I will never forget. Sometimes it feels like a great end to a story but it’s just the beginning of a bigger story that will not only mark as a huge leap to something new but also enchant me as soon as it starts to unfold.

Many people have their own understanding of TGB. It could be hell or haven, a sanctuary or a prison, a waste of time or just a school you go in high school. Pick your choice.

I think that TGB is life. Inside the bars of this well-known prison lies a sanctuary of knowledge for this life and the hereafter. The bright colours and enthusiasm of the teachers and staff are the welcoming you can get from this place but what makes it a valuable piece in life is the pictures and shards of memory you keep as you pass this awful yet intriguing place. It was never easy to say goodbye but as time comes for you, leaving is already prescribed in our life. It is a certainty. So treasure each moment you have in life. Always remember that there must be a reason for every single thing. Be optimistic and look forward to what tomorrow might bring. Allah is always there so never give up hope. Lots of smiles for you, future me. :)

Reminder of TGB,

Just for you.

9^th December 2011”

She folded the letter and smiled to herself.

“Sabreena, come on now. You’ll be late for your appointment with the gynaecologist.”

“Coming, dear. It’ll just be a minute,” she answered. Sabreena got up and got herself ready for the weekly meeting with her doctor. Although she’s one, it’s better to consult one that has the specialty shouldn’t we?

As she closed the photo album which she took out from her memory capsule, Sabreena smiled at the green book enclosed within it a thousand memories. She questioned herself, ‘Why didn’t I just buy a pendrive for all this pictures? Haha..’

“Sabreena~!”

“Yes, yes. I’m coming. Owh sheesh, don’t be a hassle just because it’s your first baby.”

END.

Skies!! 大好き~

2012-01-04T23:29:00.000+08:00

School, shmool. So all the kids have gone back to school. (eceh, cam ak tua sangat la plak. berlaga giler.. haha..) Even some of my friends who have attended college (like, they're taking fast track) have already registered today. Omoo.. It's like seeing my kids grow so fast. I bet they're having a blast and I really hope they do. Whatever it is, if they have the spirit and guts, they'll make it through, like they did in TGB. Now, what I want to share is my collection of photos of the clear blue SKIES in Perlis!! OMGeeee, they are to die for. Seriously. I regretted not bringing my art stuff and sketching the skies here. I simply L.O.V.E them~!!!

Look! Only Allah can do that. Subhanallah..

Let's start Anew shall we?

2012-01-01T20:26:00.001+08:00

So I think it's enough of blaming myself and saying that everything is an entire mess. I'll bury the past and have a fresh start again. Dah solat taubat, so hati ni dah terubat la sikit. Now to keep it always like that I should pray more and do many good deeds. To make everything clearer, let's make a check-list or better known as New Year Resolutions ( I never actually believe that I can get it all done though.. -_-"")

I want to be a better MUSLIMAH (seriously, this is the most hardest part ever.)
I want to be a more obedient daughter and tolerant sister to my family. I have been trying to change so much last year and I can see some good changes in me. Hehe... (Proud of me-self. Haha.. )
I want to get STRAIGHT A+'s in my SPM. (Very crucial part in obtaining that scholarship...)
I would love to become a book worm reading real books that is. :)
I want to get a good scholarship, if possible, to study abroad.
I want to be a better friend, and an even better person that can shape the country to be a better place to live in. (Let's put more integrity in ourselves for the sake of our nation, Malaysians!)

I think that's all. Can't think of anything else to put in that list. Is it just me or is it true that when you resolve to be a better muslim or muslimah you probably have sum up your new year resolution. It's like as soon as I put that resolution up first, it was kind of hard to think of the other 5. Well, beats me. I hope 2012 gives me something good, something wonderful, something exciting and especially something that can help me keep a strong faith to the Almighty, Allah S.W.T.

It's New Year sigh

2012-01-01T19:28:00.000+08:00

It's 2012; New Year; freedom of books and high school. *sigh* But I've done something bad. No use choking it out of me people, I won't tell nobody what I did. It's confidential. Nobody will ever know. It's between me and Him. So let it be that way shall we. I know that almost everybody are so enthusiastic on facing another year full of excitement but.. well.. some of us don't. Or may be some of us just have no such feelings for this year. Some thinks that we're going to face armageddon but who knows when that will happen. Day by day I think I am being incredibly tainted with sins at home. I miss school and I really miss TGB. I miss usrah and congregation prayers with everyone in school. I miss those long talks about religion and everything else in TGB. Oh, please don't let me miss homework because that means I am on the verge of madness.

Seriously, how can I retain myself. Does getting bigger apply to being even stupider and ever so prone to all the bad things. Sometimes I wish I was still young and ever so innocent. It was better that way than the me right now who is trying her best to manifest all the resentment she has for herself with video games day in and day out. Don't even get me started on facebook. It seems that I'm starting to hate that place because it makes me feel so annoyingly lonely without me knowing what the freaky reason is. Thank goodness I still play games there. It only acts as that way. *sigh* Where's hope and fun these days?

Not my plan

2011-12-19T01:59:00.001+08:00

So it wasn't my plan for the weekend. So I didn't go to CF and I couldn't post my latest belongings in my blog. So it wasn't at all like I wanted but I accepted it. Maybe this was a way for me to learn and accept things better. It was a good week and I enjoyed it. So I brought some books for me to read and Wan gave me a bookmark as a souvenir from Korea. He's nice but crazy and freakingly old. Though he is my friend. He tolerates me well. He annoys me even better. Just like I do to him. And whenever I apologize for every time I get on his nerves he would think that I have gotten out of my mind. That I have gone completely nuts. Hey, baik pun salah. Jahat pun salah. Make up your mind la orang tua! Haha..

Syasya, As and Syauqi tagged along as well. It's been such a long time since I met As. Two years. It has been sooo long. I missed those days when we would gossip around and talk with each other about almost anything. When we met each other, we were like mak joyah you know. And when Syauqi joined the gang we were like "The Three Joyah". Haha.. Syed came with Syasya but went back after lunch. he couldn't stay long I guess. I arrived quite late so right after I met up with Syasya, Syed and As, I went to the surau and prayed. Then we walked to the venue together. We met Wan on the way and he said that the ticket counter won't re-open until 3.30 pm. We decided to have lunch so we did.

Syauqi met his friend in KFC. Can't remember his name though. Sori ye bang~ Haha...

The line was like crazy and in the end we weren't able to enter since the tickets finished. Sad. Seriously I was. The place was crowded. Literally, seriously. As said it was like Mecca. Haha... Jemaah haji kan... ;)

Look at Syasya. Wan had to interfere in the picture. Freeeeako~~

So I bought two books. Lirael at Kinokuniya and Betrayal at Amcorp Mall on Sunday. Hajar gave me Kimchi (the teddy). She asked me why name it Kimchi? (it's food name and said it was weird) I just said it was cute. Hehe...

Oh. Almost forgot. Afiq Khir was there too. He went to KLCC with Syaz and Zaki. These are the names of TGBians that I met there. Seriously, TGBians were everywhere.

Me (Sab)

Syasya

Syed

Wan

Afiq Khir

Areap

Zombie

Imran

Syaz

Zaki

Zul

Yani

Hafid

Faiz Aiman

Acap

Irsyad

Areap and Zombie asked me to treat them so I did since I was so sad that I didn't know what else to do. Wan was weirdly sitting at the side of Kinokuniya while covering his eyes with the freakin mask that he wore and drinking his grape juice. I 'hoi'ed him and we walked to RASA foodcourt. Hafid and his brother together with Faiz Aiman came soon then. They consoled me due to my sadness for not being able to attend CF. It was good having them around. During that time Syasya, As and Syauqi went to the CD store. So I was the only girls amongst the so many guys there. Zombie and Areap did not joined in the talk since they already got their food. Literally, they did shut up.

This is just Wan. Pissed off. Haha..

All about Usui

2011-12-13T03:15:00.001+08:00

Guess what, I have been friends with a certain person and it's USUI. Haha.. Okay, okay.. So it's not Usui Takumi from Maid-sama but he is somebody that I really care about. A good friend that likes dark chocolate and watching people playing futsal (since he can't afford to pay the fees to play with them. Haha..).
How did I get to know this person? Well, we attended the same school for two years. He was not in the same class as me. We don't share the same club or interest. No, he's not in the same Leadership Body as me. In fact, he's in none. He's just a normal high school student. Not saying that he's dull but that's what makes Usui, Usui. He's a cool, laid-back person. Whenever I talk to him I feel like I don't have to come up with anything. The conversation will just flow smoothly and in the end we'll always have a good time together.

Usui is thin. FREAKINLY THIN PEOPLE. Well, not that thin until you can see his bones but there is jealousy in me towards his physique. (Sab: Why can't I be loike that??) Despite it all, he calls me 'hot' and I never know why. I call him 'cool'. So we're like Ms. Hot and Mr. Cool although he admits that he is a very easily agitated person. I believe his story. Well, he knows himself better than me. Right? Usui has a father who works as a firemen at Negeri Sembilan but the family stays in Melaka. So he makes the trip everyday. Sometimes he doesn't come back for a few days. But what I really admire about his family is that they always come to visit him. Loving family indeed. Haha..

Usui comes from a family of four and he's the third. He can draw pretty darn well and I guess the only common ground we have is that both him and I take arts for our tenth subject. The first time I met him was in arts class. No one would have known that Mr. Cool was actually called Doraemon back when he was small. At first, I couldn't believe it but hey, it was the same for me. The guys call him 'Sakana' (but they call in it BM laa..) for reasons I can explain but I dare not. Oh yeah, he likes the same colour as me. PURPLE! See, we're good friends. :)

My opinion about him is that... Hmmm.. He's nice. He respects me and my privacy. He doesn't do much but his smiles are something you can't buy at any convenience store. I like his style and it doesn't mean that I have to like him more than a friend. We're good pals and I know he'll help me when I need him (but that never means I can apply friend abuse can I? Haha..). So Usui, thanks a bunch for being my friend. May it last forever, 'kay? Amiin..~

P.S: Especially for you Mr. Cool SHARK. Haha...

Reminiscing past memories

2011-12-12T05:42:00.001+08:00

So, it has been a whole year hasn't it. Relieved that a whole year has pass has surely gotten me thinking that's its another year closer to the end of the world. So let's be thankful to Allah for giving us a chance to live in this world shall we. Alhamdulillah~

I have been wondering about this. What would I be like if I wasn't put in TGB? If I stayed in KT and ended my high school years there. Yeah, surely it would be nice to be breathing the air of Terengganu for a whole 5 years but I would have missed alot if I actually stayed there. Frankly speaking, there were times when I feel that I regret moving to TGB since KT has been having a very nice facelift. Mcha once asked me that question whether I regretted or not entering TGB. I answered her sincerely. "There must be a reason why Allah placed me here and you there, Mcha." Sometimes it feels like I'm lying to myself but it suddenly had become my stand and my way of thinking. A perspective and thought that soon became my belief in life.

EVERYTHING MUST HAPPEN FOR A REASON

Holding on to that one solid reason, I continued my life in TGB. Living each and every day with meaning to it. Sure it pains me to be here sometimes but I started to learn to endure the hardship it gives me. I made friends with people from all over Malaysia. I was even able to enhance my abilities in many aspects that had brought me to achieve a special place in the school itself. Growing up in TGB is a wonderful memory. Alhamdulillah, it had even made me become closer to the Almighty; the one who put me here in the first place.

Sometimes, it's not about the what you go through in life. It's about what you achieve with it. Some people might take it positively while others the other way around. Opening your mind is one thing but opening your HEART is what makes you more humane. I love TGB and I'll never forget KT. Both of these places share a place deep in my heart as a place where I learn the greatest knowledge of all;

WORSHIPPING ALLAH.

SAYA GEMBIRA!!

2011-12-08T00:51:00.001+08:00

Seriously, I'm trying to be happy so SMILE people..

I'm in the middle of the night.. Thinking...

2011-12-07T02:41:00.002+08:00

So I have been asked to write about my stories and life for the past two years in TGB which I don't really know what I have experienced so much. Sometimes it seems as though I have to creack my heads open these days to get on e of those ideas streaming down on my paper; more specifically, my monitor.. It's during these times that I can gain inner peace since everyone's asleep and I'm the only one awake.. Been a really long time since I had times like this. Haha... Kinda weird but I'll get something to write on. I'm sure of it. Dear ESSAY, here I come~~~

Facelift~

2011-12-02T20:46:00.002+08:00

OMGeeeee~!!!!

Sumpah tempat ni dh bersawang giler nk mampus... Sekarang, dh kemas elook dh... haha... Whatever it is, it seems that i've finally changed my blog skin ready for a new story to begin. Hehe... Since SPM has finally ended yesterday for me, I'll try being an active blogger back again as before... Hmm... What should I write then? Personally, I don't really know. I'll figure something out I guess.. Hehe.. Whatever it is, SMILES for everyone~! Hehe...

Detailed stuff on ME!!

2011-06-06T03:00:00.001+08:00

Name: Nur Sabreena binti Aminudin Baki

Date of Birth:16th June 1994

Birthplace: Hosp. Universiti Malaya, KL

Current Location: Balakong, Cheras, Selangor, Malaysia, South-East Asia, Earth

Eye Color: Dark Brown

Hair Color: Dark Brown

Height: 1.63 m

Heritage: Malay

Piercings: Used to have at both of my ears... Been 6 years since I last wore earrings

Tattoos: None and never intend to have

Favourite

Band/Singer: Currently UKiss & After School

Song: 0330, Jangan Menyerah, Because of You

Movie: Too many

Disney Movie: High School Musical Series

TV show: Asian Takeaway, Nora Elena

Color: depending on current situation, purple

Food: Chinese fried rice

Pizza topping: Beef and Pepperoni with cheese

Ice-Cream Flavor: Vanilla, Stawberry, Raspberry Ripple

Drink (alcoholic): Never had and never want to try

Soda: Coca-cola

Store: 7-eleven

Clothing Brand: Anything that's comfy and nice

Shoe Brand: Never thought of it...

Season: Spring

Month: March

Holiday/Festival: Eidulfitri and School Holidays!

Flower: White Rose

Make-Up Item: Lip Gloss

Board game: Sahibba

This or That

Sunny or rainy: Sunny

Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla

Fruit or veggie: Veggie of course!

Night or day: Night

Sour or sweet: Sweet. But too much is untolerable....

Love or money: Both?

Phone or in person: In person

Looks or personality: Can I have both??

Coffee or tea: Tea

Hot or cold: Cold

Your

Goal for this year: To get 10A's in SPM

Most missed memory: Having fun and goofing around with my friends...

Best physical feature: Hmm... Dunno....

First thought waking up: " Let's go back to sleep... 2 minutes more....."

Hypothetical personality disorder: ???

Preferred type of plastic surgery: Never thought of it...

Sesame street alter ego: Groover.... I think.....

Fairytale alter ego: Hmm..... Sleeping Beauty's fairy godmothers??

Most stupid remark: Hmm.... Never came to mind....

Worst crime: Becoming a horrible human being

Greatest ambition: To achieve great success in this life and the hereafter

Greatest fear: Every one of my precious people dying before me

Darkest secret: *NOT TELLING*

Favorite subject: English~

Strangest received gift: I don't even get that much gifts.. Haha...

Worst habit: Getting lazy to wake up from bed

Do You

Smoke: Never!

Drink: Na'ah~

Curse: Sometimes.. Rarely...

Shower daily: Of course!

Like thunderstorms: Not really.. But I'm not that scared of them.

Dance in the rain: Once I think. Or was it just spinning around?

Sing: Always. My favourite past time.

Play an instrument: Currently no.. Can my voice be counted as an instrument?

Get along with your parents: YUP. I'm a good kid. Though sometimes I get into quarrels with them.. Hehe....

Wish on stars: Once in a while but I never believed it would come true.

Believe in fate: Definite.

Believe in love at first sight: No. Never would I guess.

Can You

Drive: Haven't reached the age to. Haha...

Sew: I am sooo not good in it. =p

Cook: My best attribute in housework~... (two thumbs up)

Speak another language: Does Malay and abit Japanese count?

Dance: I do it when nobody is looking. Hehehe...

Sing: Yes, yes and YES!

Touch your nose with your tongue: Is that even possible?? Must have a long tongue... Haha...

Whistle: I can do it with a whistle..

Curl your tongue: *nods*

Have You Ever

Been Drunk: I don't even drink, how the heck can I get drunk?

Been Stoned/High: ??? Wuzzat?

Eaten Sushi: Yaalaah... Ebi sushi is my favourite.

Been in Love: Alhamdulillah, I'm normal... Haha...

Skipped school: In primary school... Always did... Hahaha.. But I stayed at home okay.

Made prank calls: Once, when Suraya asked me to act as an Indian lady. Hehe..

Sent someone a love letter: Does all the letter I sent to Faiz count?

Stolen something: Hmmm.... What did I steal? A person's heart? Hahahaha... Lawak Sab...

Cried yourself to sleep: I did! Back then when dad didn't let me watch Naruto... Hmm... If I'm not mistaken when I was in Standard 4..

Other Questions

What annoys you most in a person?
-Being too emotional over things..

Are you right or left handed?
-Right-handed!

What is your bedtime?
-Depends on me.. Whether I want to sleep or not.

Name three things you can't live without:
1. My parents
2. Food and Water
3. Oxygen

What is the color of your room?
-Do I even have a room? Haha...

Do you have any siblings?
- Yup. Three. I'm the eldest.

Do you have any pets?
-No. They all DIED. (Do the cats behind my house that we give food everyday count as pets?)

Would you kill someone you hate for a million dollars?
-No. Killing people is wrong!

What is your middle name?
-I don't have a middle name. My name only consist of two words. Sorry~
What are your nicknames?

Are you for or against gay marriage?
-Gays should not even exist in this world. What has gotten into you guys????

What are your thoughts on abortion?
-Not doing it. Hate the act. Unless it is unexpected abortion...

Do you have a crush on anyone?
-I do. And my heart's been crush because of that, thank you.

Are you afraid of the dark?
-Sometimes. When there's not a glimpse of light.

How do you want to die?
-If possible, while I'm praying or under the arms of my beloved.

What is the largest amount of popsicles that you have eaten on one day?
-Two! I can't eat much. Brain freeze~!

Would you take a bullet for the one you love?
-Maybe.

What is the last law you've broken?
-Not wearing the back seatbelts?

In a Member of the Opposite Sex

Hair color: Black or Dark Brown

Eye color:Hazel

Height: Taller than me.. Hmm... 175 cm and above?

Weight: Heavier than me but not in the obese range of course.

Most important physical feature: Has a nice smile!

Biggest turn-off: Lee Joon from MBLAQ! Haha... Worse, the guy I'm having a crush on. (NO WAY! Not in a million years)-*angan2 semata-mata*

The numbers doesn't matter... Do they?

2011-06-06T01:45:00.002+08:00

I never really thought that numbers mattered in my life except for the cruel fact that i need it for add maths and modern maths and also all those phone numbers i need to have. I believed that friendship is also not measured by numbers or by the times we have with our friends but the heart and willingness of a person in a relationship is all that's needed. What would my life be of if everyone thought that only by having numbers in my eyes (most likely those zeros..) would they only be friends with me. I am so grateful to have so much in this life. To have a happy life, a family, a mom and a dad, extraordinary teachers and understanding FRIENDS.
This post is dedicated to all my friends out there who are willing to lend me a hand in my rough and tangled life. Helped me through the days when I cried and felt that I couldn't go on. Thank you friends...

To my most wonderful bestie, Suraya who has been my friend ever since 2002...

Fatin Najwa, who has always remembered me....

My primary school friends...

My besties in KT and TGB, As, Mcha, Ain, Pieyah and most definitely Syasya...

The two most awesome dudes ever, Faiz and Adib...

My KAIZENIANS.....

My cutest roomies, Mira, Aler and Sifu....

My neighbours/classmates, Lat, Alia, Nad, N.A, Syaza, Lina, Iqa, Syira, Yaz, Fafau...

My classmates 408 & 508....

My BWPs....

and not forgetting...

My TGBians...

Thank you all...

Smile Sab~

2011-06-06T01:25:00.007+08:00

Tak ada manusia
Yang terlahir sempurna
Jangan kau sesali
Segala yang telah terjadi

Kita pasti pernah
Dapatkan cobaan yang berat
Seakan hidup ini
Tak ada artinya lagi

Syukuri apa yang ada
Hidup adalah ANUGERAH
Tetap jalani hidup ini
Melakukan yang terbaik

Tak ada manusia
Yang terlahir sempurna
Jangan kau sesali
Segala yang telah terjadi

Tuhan pasti kan menunujukkan
Kebesaran dan kuasa-Nya
Bagi hamba yang SABAR
Dan tak kenal putus asa

Jangan menyerah...

Whatever it is Sab, you deserve to smile despite it all.... So smile Sab... :)

You came in my dreams too often...

2011-06-06T00:14:00.005+08:00

It was easy wasn't it.. All I had to do was forget about you and it would all be okay... Literally saying, it would have been easy but in the end I could have never gotten over it. I'm the worse. Throw me into the sea will ya. Probably by that time I would have erased everything in my heart as soon as it stops beating.

EVERYDAY...
I dread over the fact that I did not know why you did this...
Nice reason you gave...
Got me believing it for 1 hour...
Even in my DREAMS, you try to shun me out...
Every time I fall asleep, I'll dream of you...
The more and more I do...
The more awful it gets...
Give me a solid reason please...
So that I could stop this, this nonsense...
Onegai....

With tears,
Me

Leave me alone oil tanker~!

2011-04-17T02:11:00.003+08:00

This is an oil tanker..

I wish that oil tanker would be like this...

So that I can achieve this...

Masak je aku nih...

2011-04-16T23:15:00.002+08:00

Ada orang kata dia suka makan kek pisang, jadi aku telah mengambil keputusan untuk membuat kek pisang! Haha... Dahla pisang bertimbun kat rumah, memang syokla... At first, Mummy didn't approve of me getting my hands dirty but Adik was able to sweet talk her into letting us do it. With help from Adik (she mashed the bananas) and Mummy (she helped with the recipe), we were able to make this! Tadaa..! Okay... It dosn't look that much but it tastes wonderful. It's kinda soft and kinda too sweet but it's just nice. Haha... Sape2 nak, datang FB03. Hehe.. Promote bilik.. Then, I got hungry since I didn't eat dinner. So I went to the kitchen and made myself some fried rice (with a different mix of ingredients) and created... Wallah~...! But I should've cooked the potatoes longer. Keras sikit... Oh, well... Dah lapar kan... Makan je la... Haha....

This is for ALL of you!

2011-04-16T00:01:00.003+08:00

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrongs that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
Through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believe
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm greatful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was
Loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining shining your love
Into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am Because you loved me

Dedicated to: My wonderful Ma and Pa... The cheeky two, Ammar and Adik... My concerned Tokpuan and Tokyah... My generous Maktok... All of my spectacular teachers.. My lovely friends.. And everyone who helped me drew my path in life...

-THANK YOU-

Sharing is Caring~

2011-04-14T22:12:00.010+08:00

[ Quotes for the soul and mind ]

Enjoy!

It's been ages and I come back with STRESS...

2011-04-14T21:20:00.004+08:00

"It hasn't been a horrible week and I feel tired, exhausted and fed up with life. Leave me alone and bear me fruits of hatred and wicked intention. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of life. Kill me off if you can. Find a crane and hang me in the air. Put a plastic bag over my head and suffocate me. Bring me out of this misery. I've had enough!"

That would probably be what I would spurt out if I really have gone insane and lost my stand in Islam. Luckily, religion is what put me back to reality and rational thinking. I haven't written in my bloggie for such a long time and I miss reading back my entries over and over again. Though everytime I start writing it would be mostly about my problems, problems and more problems. I can ensure you that I am facing a very hectic life and a much troublesome phase in uniting my batch. Sometimes, it always comes in my mind that it was a seemingly impossible thing to do. Even after the batch meeting, it seems that nothing was successful. Everything stayed the same as it is. Where had the spirit gone? Why had it only lasted a couple of hours? A couple of minutes? Seconds maybe? Why? Why? WHY?

Sometimes I feel like giving up. I feel like I should not think about anyting anymore and just focus on myself and be selfish. But I just can't.... It seems.... So unlike me.. I know I worry to much. Many have pointed that out. (Thank you to those who pointed that out especially Mummy and Daddy) I'm thinking too much and I know that it's not healthy but I can't stop. YIKES! One question though to all the readers.... Please answer it with open heart....

Am I that much of a lousy leader?

Crap Sab, stop thinking about it!

2011-03-16T02:51:00.003+08:00

I should stop..... It's not nice being dellusional. It's wrong. Dead WRONG.

Would you choose me?

2011-03-16T02:31:00.003+08:00

I believe that this statement is cracking up your mind...

Or....

Maybe mine instead...

Whatever it is,

HE won't choose me....

Would he?

Then again....

Naaaah.....

'Berangan je lebih sab nih..'

I miss my bloggie and I miss.....

2011-03-16T02:26:00.001+08:00

Waaaaaaai~~!!! It's been decades since I've written in here. My, my... Sure miss this space alot.. Haha... I've been down in the dumps recently most probably because I MISS my shining personality. Lately, I've been glooming alot and thinking 'bout so many things I feel that my head's going to rip apart any minute now. I'm missing school and I'm missing my friends. I'm dreading over the tsunami in Japan and I'm at a lost about my own feelings.

*sigh*

What's the solution?

Seriously stressed out...

2011-01-19T09:33:00.005+08:00

It has been days since I had a good night sleep and days since I had any proper pamper time for myself. Well, it was expected but this is going overboard. Schoolwork, BWP work. I'm tired stiff.

Once I had thought that I shold just give up, stay low and wither with all of the depression and pressure I get.

Once, I've lost all hope and inspiration.

Once, in these few weeks of school, I exerted myself on work making a blind eye on my physical health.

But...

In the end....

Lillahi taa'la... Everything for ALLAH..
With that, Alhamdullilah... Strength comes naturally...

Energy Boosting Breakfast Foods~~

2010-12-23T23:11:00.010+08:00

Alright people..

Today's post is about food and about eating good. So what am I going to spill today is about 3 types of food that can get you energized for the day. Keep in mind that I'm not doing this because I love to eat but also because I love to share. Since I can't share the food right now, lets just share the knowledge I have. Btw, I got this from Ms. Yahoo..

Eggs

Why: Rich in protein, helps food craving

How: Two to three eggs make for a satisfying scramble, omelet, or on-the-go snack when they're hard-boiled. Add flavour and nutrients with fresh herbs and/or veggies

Nutritionists tip: "Don't forget the yolk," says registered dietitian Katherine Brooking. "It provides more than 13 important nutrients like vitamins A and zinc, which maintain immune function and tissue growth.

Sab's comment: I don't only eat eggs for breakfast but lunch, dinner, supper and midnight snacks also fit well for this superb food. Haha... I can have eat eggs for almost every meal of the day. Senang jaga aku nih.. Kasi telur ngan kicap pun aku boleh rasa macam nikmat. Ngee~

Oatmeal

Why: The complex carbohydrates in oatmeal provide vitamins and minerals that give us energy. (Simple carbohydrates, like those in white bread, carry the risk of being converted to fat and stored) Go for old-fashioned or steel-cut oats. They're high in protein and soluble fiber, which lowers cholesterol and makes you feel fuller longer.

How: The topping options are endless. Try unsweetened dried, fresh or frozen fruit, flax, chia or pumpkin seeds; spices like cinnamon or nutmeg; nuts like almonds and walnuts; or a drizzle of raw honey or grade B maple syrup.

Nutritionist's tip: "Oats benefit the brain and boosting the production of serotonin to combat stress and enhance learning and memory function," says nutritionist Keri Glassman.

Sab's comment: Me no likey oatmeal. I still remeber that one time when my grandmother forced me to eat oatmeal. It was all good for the past three days until one day I vomitted the oats because I couldn't face the taste. To all oatmeal lovers, I'm sorry to say this but I HATE OATMEAL..! (screaming at the top of my lungs) Uhum.. Thank you.. Haha....

Nut Butter

Why: Butter are made from nuts like almonds, cashews and peanuts are filled with vitamin E, protein, magnesium, calcium and potassium. It also contain monounsaturated fats-also found in olive oil which are good fats that lower bad cholesterol and increase good cholesterol.

How: Spread nut butters on top of whole grain toast, apple or banana slices, or blend into a smoothie. Limit your servings to one or two tablespoons.

Nutrionist's tip: "It's better to have some fat than to have a breakfast that doesn't satiate, leaving you hungry in an hour. Listen to what your body works best off to keep you satisfied all morning long," says nutritionist Marissa Lipert.

Sab's comment: This is AWESOME! Especially yang Kasar punya jenis. Yuummy~~

Am I Strict, Stern and Aggresive?

2010-12-21T22:11:00.004+08:00

People usually tell me that their first impression of me was that I seemed that I am very strict and stern. Well, there was one exception when this guy said he first thought of me as a ***i* girl.

*sigh*

Do I really fit the part as a dictator?

Maybe I really should be one. Haha...

Maybe this is how I look like when my fuse goes *KEBABOOM!*

Am I this scary?? Well, maybe half of it I guess.. Haha...

Maybe I just look stupid with this face on and everybody's laughing at me from the back. Haha...

Maybe I should become abit NICER...

On second thoughts...

NAAAH.....

Let me just be me.. Haha...

Waah~ Blog ak dicerobohi~~

2010-12-21T22:00:00.003+08:00

Ngehehe... Sebenarnya blog aku tak dicerobohi pun... Aku yang menggedik wat statement tuh..
Actually one of my friends in TGB told me that he took a peek in my blog. I was flattered that he praised me about it. Orait~ *Thumbs up* Kinda happy that people would give nice and postive feedbacks. Nih yang buat aku lagi bersemangat nak menulis. Haha... Pasni kena rajin-rajinla menulis di belog kesayangan nih... Yeah....~

My 100th POST!

2010-12-19T00:35:00.004+08:00

Who came up in your mind?

Me?

Secret.

COMIC FIESTA 2010

2010-12-18T21:00:00.004+08:00

YIPEE~~!!

IT's finally here again....

COMIC FIESTA 2010!!

Okay-okay... So it was a rather happy day for me. I was able to attend the event yet again another year after being a loyal fan for the past 2 years. I was soooo pschyed! I also got to meet Syauqi and Kak Asha before. Omoo~ Sweet couple.. Olololo... Haha... They sure were cute together. Seem like Kak Asha was so 'berseri-seri' bak kata tuan punya badan sendiri, Edward Cullen pn kalah. Haha... So the tentative was like this....

When I arrived, the queue was damn long and the place was packed with cosplayers. I was alone this year so I taught that it would be abit boring but it wasn't that bad. There were alot of people to watch and observe so it was kinda fun to be by myself this time around.

This is how the layout of the place is. Don't be fooled by the map guys. It was CROWDED like OMG. Seriously, I had to twist my butt around to move from one spot to another. Luckily I wasn't that much of a fatso or I would have been stuck in the midst of hardship. In the hall, I met with this one girl. I was able to see alot of people in different outfits and the moment was lively as the cosplay competition just started at that time. Pusing punya pusing, tawaf punya tawaf, akhirnya aku telah berjaya membuat keputusan untuk membeli beberapa barangan. Hahahahaha! Keseronokan kemelandaan~~ To know what I bought, watch the video below. NOt a nice one, but pandai2la korang.... Entertain yourself with my sooo noobie video. Enjoy~

eh, eh... ade kesilapan teknikal ye... hehe... sebenarnye name tempat tuh Hotel Berjaya Times Square. Biasela.. Aku kan suke merepek. And mokona hat tuh, benda yg aku beli paling last actually. Need to make a decision man... Banyak lagi yang cantik but it was waaaay too expensive. I would be penniless and bald if I bought the RM 60 one.

Oh... Another error... Watch, watch...

With that, I end my crappy entry with an wabillahitaufik wal hidayah, Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh....

Ngeee~~ Hope to see you again at COMIC FIESTA 2011.

Moga panjang umur.....

I think I should be honest

2010-12-18T08:41:00.004+08:00

I'm not feeling well. Technically maybe because of the lack of sleep but I know I'm battling with my own feelings here. I don't like it when I'm like this. To put it in exact words. I haven't been myself lately.

I've turn into someone that wasn't me.

Hurt my best friend.

Lost my ground in reality.

Lied to myself far too much.

Created make-believe feelings that were mere facades of illusions.

I don't like this one bit. Why am I held in this state when I should have fun this holiday. Why am I forced to think of things so cheesy that used to be only a simple obstacle passing in my teenage life. I wanted to be honest but I could never do that. Not in my condition now. Not when there's no one to hear me spill my nonsense or crap. Really I'd simply want to trade the me now, to the me before. I want to be a normal geeky anime freak back. Someone nice and brilliant yet less 'popular'(if you know what I'm sayin). The me that I was so comfortable with. Maybe it was wrong for me to believe in the first place. Nevertheless to fall in love. Now, I'm trap between decisions. Either to be true or be kind. I don't want to be the bad guy. I've never had to because I've never caught myself in this kind of mess.

People say enjoy it while you still can. University life would be dull. What do I care? I would want that even more. At that time, maybe none of these weird things would occur. My old life would be retained back again and I can be the geeky me once again.

*sigh*

I should be grateful with the life I have. Others have it tougher than me and they don't complain. Alhamdulillah.. Mungkin ini ujian Allah. Mungkin ini nasib aku. Insyaallah, pasti ada hikmah disebaliknya.

Sabda Rasululllah s.a.w:

"Ya Allah, jauhkanlah antara diriku dengan dosa-dosa sepertimana Engkau jauhkan antara timur dan barat. Ya Allah, bersihkanlah diriku daripada dosa-dosa sepertimana bersihnya pakaian putih daripada kekotoran. Ya Allah, sucikanlah dosa-dosaku dengan air, salju dan air yang sejuk."

(daripada Abu Hurairah, Riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim)

.................................

2010-12-18T01:23:00.000+08:00

EUTTOKHE????

사랑해요 SHINEE 가족 !!

2010-12-17T23:49:00.006+08:00

Pesanan penaja utama, MahaGuru Sabreena:

If you are NOT interested in K-pop, I would like to kindly ask you to ignore this post for your own good. Don't go spilling crap to these pop idols. Thank you.

SHINEE Family~ Aaah, Happiness.. Haha...

Baby Yoogeun

Taemin Appa

Onew Appa

Key Eomma

Minho BIG Appa

Jonghyun Babo Appa (My favourite actually)

I just wanna post these picture and spread these cute faces for everyone to see.

Hahhahahahaha....

Biarla diorang jambu pun, ape aku kisah...

Dah cute pndai2la aku nk ske....

My rights.

Don't interfere.

Kentut celah mata, buta dua-dua.

Menangis tak berlagu korang.

LOVE SHINEE FOREVER~!

Oh Presento TeddyOo~~

2010-12-17T23:15:00.003+08:00

TodayO I am not gonna speak-speakO. So u'all tengok-tengokla my picture-pictureO ye. Bwahahahahaha~

Mahaha~ Udah pandai saya buat muka pelik-pelik....

Taiko-chan say ANNYONGHASEYO~~

(cehh, korean plak aku sekarang..)

From left:

KuRo, MiU, TaIkO

Inilah kesayangan ku... DaISukI~~!

Uuuuh... Jangan marah saya....

2010-12-17T02:09:00.006+08:00

Hey, janganla lari... Janganlah pergi daripada Sabreena.... Sabreena taknak awak pergila... Hey, janganlah buat macam ni kat saya.... Hey, hey, HEY!! Awak paham tak nih???

Sabreena...

*sniff * *sniff*

Sabreena sayang awak la bodoh...

Bodoh....

*sniff* *sniff*

Hey, It's Me!! Nyaah~!

2010-12-17T01:43:00.000+08:00

www.dreamself.me

Exploring Domo's Place.... Ngee~~

2010-12-16T23:55:00.009+08:00

Okay, yesterday at around 2 a.m or was it 3 a.m, I couldn't remember, I had a tour held by the man himself, DOMO!!! (bukan nme sebenar)

Speaking of the tour, where did he give me one? Around his house!! Hahahahaha!
How?? Through webcam of course... I didn't have one installed in my PC so it was pretty unfair of me but who cares, I had a great time!

Ok2.. Since he was so nice on YM yesterday, he even brought the laptop down to the kitchen whilst he was making his 'maggie meal' just to amuse me. Awww... How nice... (Ceh, kembang la tuh kne puji.. Hakhak...)

So, the question went on whether would there be an error if I requested for a webcam view when I don't have one attached to my PC, meaning that only one party has it. We tried the experiment. Seems that it didn't. I could see the other side just clear... Yaay~~

So, I asked him to show me around the house. Suprisingly he agreed. So... YIPPEE for me...!

First he showed me the kitchen. It was dark since it was in the middle of the morning, so I asked him to open the lights to get a better look around.

This is the first place he brought me to see (well technically he brought the laptop around). It was his dining area.

Dining hall (it's a big place so I'll call it a 'hall'.. hehe...)

I didn't know which place this is.. I just the pics from FS.

Living Room... Smart! Haha...

What is this place?? Tempat nak sambut guests kot?? Ntah... No idea...

His house's spiralling stair case.
Seriously it has the style~

Then we went upstairs. I was anticipating to see his room. Tgok2 dia bagi tunjuk depan pintu je. Hampeh. Haha.. He told me that his room was a mess and that he couldn't be bothered enough to tidy it up. I persuaded him and luckily he agreed. Nothing much in his room except for some old books and old stuff. He told me his mom made puts in old things at his room. Kesian.. jadi macam stor. Haha.. No worries, I understand ALOT.

This is his room when it was still saved from any 'store experience'. Haha...

At the end of the tour, we chatted for awhile. Since he had webcam on his side, I teased him. Hehe.... Sorry domo nee~~ Haha... It was fun because he annoying and it was funny. Meaning that it was a good kind of annoying. Ngee~~

So to the DOMO-san:
HONTOU NI ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU!!!

Ceyht... Stylo tak aku lukis ni?? Hahaha.....

P.S:

Yesterday, it wasn't only me who was watching... Hehe......

Heish, bengangnye aku....

2010-12-16T23:00:00.003+08:00

Tadi baru aku bersemangat nak update blog. Nak tulis 2 entry tapi last2 memory card adapter plak hilang. Astaga... Memang bengang betul giler-giler baban la aku. Ish, serabai betul. Baru pikir nak seronok update belog kesayangan sebelum start buat add maths balik.

*sigh*

Nasib aku.... Alhamdulillah je la... Adela sebabnye kot kenapa ak ditimpa masalah sebegini. Haha.... Gelak je la Sab...

*sigh*

Sabreena, taknak tambah followers ke?

2010-12-16T01:40:00.002+08:00

Tak.
Saya tak berminat.
Fullstop.
Kenapa?

Jawapannya mudah sahaja.

I am not interested in it.

"My blog is a place I spill my crap, so the less the people that knows how vulnerable and vain I am, the better. Popularity isn't my reason to start blogging. It is just a medium to express myself. "

Much of a reason for you?

A few changes here and there

2010-12-15T23:18:00.003+08:00

Had to change my blogger layout.

Why?

Hilman had the same layout as I did.

Pish, Thank goodness I found the cutest most awesome website to get this layout. Cute huh? Haha...

Note to Hilman:

Next time, mind you being a little bit cautious on picking your blog layout....

Credits to freecodesource.com...

Love ya...

Exams.. Pergh, SPM taun depan....

2010-12-15T00:52:00.006+08:00

Waah~~ OMGeee.... Haha... Tahun depan aku dah nak amik SPM. Macam tak percaya je aku dah tua. Mak'ai... How fast time come and go... I'm gonna have my last school year tomorrow. And I'm gonna be in TGB. Macam tak percaya kan? Dulu, aku masih hingusan kat KT. Tuptaptuptap...... Dah besar dah anak dara Encik Aminudin dan Puan Baizzura nih. Berjanggut la aku lepas nih. Eh, eh... Aku pompuan... Kang tumbuh janggut terbeliak pulak bijik mata semua orang. Haha... Janggut tipu Santa Claus boleh la pakai nak wat olok-olok. Haha...

Kepada semua kawan-kawan yang aku sayangi....

BATCH KAIZEN kesayangan di MRSMKT....

BATCH 10/11 tercinta di MRSMTGB....

Kawan-kawan lama di SMKCJ.....

dan

kepada semua F5 2011 yang mengenali diriku yang tak berape feymes ini....

Tapi aku kenela ubah perangai selalu tido dalam exam nih. Tak bagus... Hikhik....

Hidup aku yang lalu sebagai ayam... (ala.. macam biografi aku sebuah pen tuh...)

2010-12-15T00:50:00.006+08:00

Aku ada cerita....
Mau dikatakan....

Dulu.....

Aku nih....

Sebenarnye hidup sebagai....

SEEKOR AYAM....

Ceritanya bermula sebegini...

Bila aku dah lahir, aku ni ayam yang sangat bijak dan mendengar kata. Toys Brando nih amik aku jadi cover iklan nih sal aku saaaaangatla comel. Lagi comel daripada anak-anak ayam yang lain. Dahla diorng ni ske memekak. Pening kepala aku. Aku nak study Add Math pun susah dalam reban tuh tau. Bising! Bila aku dah besar diorang pindahkan aku kat tempat lain.

Durjana betul. Lagilah bising! Aku nak belajar PhD medic punya la bahana dalam reban yang penuh dengan ayam-ayam tak betul nih. Last-last, aku pun terpikir. Biarla aku belajar camne pun, last-last aku kena gak makan dengan manusia. Tuh dah memang suratan takdir aku sebagai seekor ayam ternakan macam yang kena ngan mak aku... *sigh* Bila aku dah hampir putus harapan tiba-tiba sorang mamat tua nih masuk reban ayam nih. Dia kuarkan aku daripada reban nih. Aku pun pelik la. Apsal ngan pakcik nih??

Masuk reban baru plak. Haa.. Yang ni macam comel sikit. dahla takde sape-sape. Aman + Bahagiala aku kat sini. Takdela penin satu kepala aku nak pikir sal ayam-ayam lain nak merepek meraban ape-ape. Aku ingat dia nak bagi aku duduk dalam tuh. Tengok-tengok dia bagi je freeshow kat aku. Nak jual kat jiran sebelah rupanye... Hei! Penipu punya orang tua....

Akhirnya, dia campak aku kat reban ayam belakang rumah dia. Entah ape dia nak buat. Di sana, aku berjumpa dengan pelbagai jenis ayam. Aku yang macam orang yang tak betul pun terpinga-pinga la masuk tempat baru.

Ni bukan gambar aku tau. Ayam mane ntah, kamera aku maen snap je time tuh...

Aku pun terjumpa lah ngan seekor ayam yang hitam bulunye. Aku penin la.. Aku ni abes putih dia hitam. Nasib baik tak legam. Takdelah susah sangat aku nak mencari. Dia nilah best fren aku time aku kat reban belakang rumah orang tua tuh. Punye la seronok berkawan ngan dia. Tiba-tiba orang tua tuh datang amik aku dari reban. Aku ingat dia nak bagi ak sight-seeing free lagi. Tengok-tengok....

Dia sembelih aku...

Eh, pandai plak omputih nih nak sembelih-sembelih ayam....

Abes dia buat aku ayam panggang baik punya...

Stylo tak gambar aku setelah kuar dari oven? Lighting cantik kan?? Haha... Still ayam yang best. Ish3... Aku ni punya la ayam yang pandai, boleh plak dia pegi wat aku macam ni. Xpe2.. Ak redha. Syukur sekarang aku dilahirkan sebagai seorang manusia yang sempurna dari segi fizikal dan mental. Aku harap perkongsian pengalaman nih dapat menjadi satu perkara yang dapat membantu korang mengerti pengorbanan ayam dalam hidup kita.

Hahaha...

Serius Sabreena dah tak betul dah sekarang....

Where is my "Cruiseliner" a.k.a Bot Mewah???

2010-12-15T00:17:00.006+08:00

Setelah ditinggalkan bot ikan buruk yang kini sudah bertukar menjadi bot seludup (gambar di bawah) Aku kini terpaksa berenang-renang di lautan mencari bot mewah untuk didiami. Pergh, abes dipujuk si bot buruk ini untuk terima aku kembali, wat derk muka blur je (aik, bot pun ade muka ke?). Jadi terpaksala i move on. Bye,bye bot buruk. Gonna miss you....

Lalu aku pun terjumpa..........

~Oasis of The Sea~

Bot paling MEWAH pernah aku jumpa setakat nih! Haha...

Pencarian bot mewah diteruskan... Haha! Tak habis-habis dengan angan-angan tak berasas nih. Rasanya para pembaca tak mungkin akan memahami bebelan aku yang ngeng-ngeng nih. Tapi kalau la aku terjumpa dengan bot mewah aku awal-awal tak seronok la plak en? Tak seronok. Tiada kejutan yang melampau. Haha.... Tapi taknak la lewat sangat. Mampus aku jadi andartu. Nauzubillah, mintak simpang malaikat 44. Tak mauuuu...~~

Antara calon-calon bot mewah aku selain kekasih oasis yang pertama tuh.... Haha....

Moga-moga aku tak terjumpa ngan kapal titanic nih..... Alamtnye karamla aku nanti kena timpa ngan iceberg... Haha...

Maafla ye.. Sabreena pada malam ini otak tak boleh pkai sikit. Haha....

Aku benci ayat basi laki.....

2010-12-14T23:47:00.006+08:00

Serius, aku xtau apa kehel dah jadi ngan aku sampai aku tergerak nak menulis mende nih dalam blog... Nak kata aku dah putus fius, aku rasa takdelah macam tuh...

"Ngaa!! Tak ske~~!"
Haha... Tengokla betapa stressnye muka ak.. Kalo ade gambar shana muntah ijau, nak je ak amik letak dalam blog. Aku memang tak makan la ayat-ayat sesetengah mamat-mamat gedik nih. Mungkin pasal aku tak biase sangat kena ampu ataupun kena tempias ngan ayat-ayat karat ni kot. Haha... Budak sempoi, tak pernah couple. Mana la aku suka....

Sape yang makan cili dia lah rase pedasnye. Aku malas nak cakap apa-apa. Lu pikir la sendiri. Bijaksana kan semuanye... Haha...

I was SOOO touched.....

2010-12-10T02:43:00.009+08:00

These were a few comic strips I had read from Mangafox. I was almost on the verge of crying. Oh please, this is sooooooo heartwarming.. I love you, Mom and Dad!!

2 Weeks Diary Part 13

2010-12-08T05:19:00.004+08:00

12th November 2010

This is the last day of school for this term....
Last day of school in 2010...
How fast time flies by....
*sigh*
I'm getting older....

Whatever it is, we were given the chance to do whatever we wanted today as long as our class was neat and tidy and that there are no books in the class. Since my class got it settled two days back, after the last morning call of the year, I headed to the Seke to get my homework done. Before thae, I met up with Kak Amuk to get the books that the kids ordered to be handed to them today. I took the whole stack and went to Seke, did the announcement and waited. Soon, Alya and Sifu came in. She was holding my stuff so she dropped by to give it to me. After a short chat, she went back to Block F to get things packed up. Sifu was there with me, busy doing homework as usual. We were soon joined by Yaz and Syira who went in to settle homework stuff too. Some seniors dropped by to do announcements and so as an obedient junior, I let them do it.

Shockingly......
He came in...........
WAAAH?????

Okay, as awkwardly it may seem, he did. I couldn't concentrate doing homework especially since I was soo bothered by his earlier request that morning. I asked him again. He was seriou. Dead serious. Yikes. In the end, I gave in and asked Dad about it. He agreed. Unwillingly I told him.
What is the request?
He wants a lift...... Yeah, yikes.... At first, I simply blurted what I would think of it. SIMPLY IMPOSSIBLE. He doesn't care, he wanted it. *sigh* I thought that this would be the first and the last time for him to ask me a favour so I agreed. He smiled. He got what he wanted. Crap, I'm dead.

Then after he had his small party with his classmates, he came in again. He brought along two cups of coconut jelly. My favourite. He gave me one. Anticipating it, I just took it as though I knew it from the start. Yaz, Syira and Sifu were already putting a straight face despite the grin that they were trying to pull. I knew, I always did. Haha...

We chatted despite the flow of people going in and out of the room. Even Za'ba was giving us the 'eye'. Sheesh, like I didn't know. There were a few funny moments that happened but it was a sad you know. Ending Form 4 is like ending your happiness year. It's like next year there's no more seniors and we are held responsible over our own actions. Next year, maintainig the batch would be a lot more harder. For all I know, I might be near to death.

So, I had my work done and finished at the correct time. That was great because that made me able to submit all of my work at the right time. Syira had a rough time. Her current emotions weren't that stable so she felt a bit depressed at the moment. I was able to comfort her, luckily. After that, I went back to the block to continue with my packing since I had another 25% to finish. Yeah, I did....

I told him that I'll text him when my dad had arrived but crap my creds finished way too soon. He got ready early and even waited in front of my block. Shoot! How did he know my room??? He was sitting right in front of my room's window pane. Alright, he is freaking me out. He knows too much. Way too much. Then I used Sifu's phone to tell him that Dad was caught in a traffic jam, so he would arrive a bit late. He said it was okay as long as I would come down and accompany him. What the???! Why in the world would I do that...? He even offered to help me with my bags... This kindness, I don't deserve it. It even makes me get the heebie-jeebies. When I insisted, he came to the threatening mode. Not that I cared, but he could've come up with a much better threat rather that crying. And yeah, Syira told me that at the Ironing Room. Amira Azrin was already asking. I couldn't lie so I told her the truth.

She ran to my room and made sure for herself. Even Nad joined in the company. Ara, ara.... This has gone to be quite the mess.

When Dad arrived, he wasn't there because he said he was at the Koop for the moment. After taking care of my luggage and stuff, he was there and met up with Dad. Since my friend was a guy, I had to sit infront and he would be at the back with Ammar. Seems that he had something to give. Huh, didn't mind at the moment. Since Dad and him have the same roots, they were on common ground to chat. When they started, even I couldn't butt in.

Since he wanted a lift to Jasin only, when we arrived at the place Dad dropped him off and I gave him his card that I made especially for him. Haven't done that in a long time.... *sigh* Brings back memories.... We exchange smiles and he left... That was all.... I was lucky to have survived the whole time. Dad had his own questions and Ammar had his own weird doubts... All I could do was to answer them honestly.

Like I always do...

2 Weeks Diary Part 12

2010-12-08T03:07:00.003+08:00

11th November 2010

WAAH~! EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!!!!!

Haha... Because we studied really, really hard (I mean we did actually studied 'kay), I am really sure that we could answer the paper well. Ala.... PJ je kot... Haha...

Now that was done, we had to clear our class and since it was already done, I went to the Seke to finish my homeworks. Yeah, yeah... We still had homework to pass up even the term is nearly over. Course work, pishi... I couldn't care less if it wasn't for my PNG marks.

We had some talk about our SEM work that we need to do next year so the teacher decided to make it at the surau. There were a few bad feedbacks because of our behaviour, but, well... Ala... Biase la tuh... Seems that the students who participated in the Tunas Saintis were going to present their projects to us so that we could learn from them for next year's SEM Type III. It was all good especially during Ellyas' speech. OMG, he could speak English so well, I was so damn impressed. I was more interested in the presentor that the project itself. Hehe.. Right after his group's presentation, Ckg Hajah Noorliza gave a warning to not be more fond of the presentor than the project because the whole motive was to have us focus on the project. Man, was I caught red-handed there. Hahaha...

Then,
Someone...
Stole MY SHOES!!! FISH!!!

Seriously, I'm thinking that the person who was responsible got the wrong pair of shoes to wear and so I'm left shoeless. Pish! I went back to the dormitory to get my sandles. Kaki-ayam way. Ish3...... Pitiful, I know. Then, I went for lunch with Syira and Sam. Pathetic as I may seem, I went to the DS wearing my school uniform and my sandals. So, not matching.....

After lunch, I went back to the dormitory to start packing stuff and get ready for tomorrow. I was able to get a little done and then I had myself doing errands and homework later in the afternoon.

Jeng..jeng..jeng....

-LAST NIGHT PREP THIS TERM-

It was the last night... The last prep always meant something like what I would always think. At first, there was suppose to be a meeting but I heard that it was cancelled because of some stuff. So, I continued with the packing. After sending my outing card to Najwa, (thank you Najwa, you are such a dear!) it was off to Kemas-Kemas Bonanza. There was an announcement saying that the wardens would come an inspect us to make sure the clean-up was for real. The whole lot believed the announcement and we were working our butts off real fast because if we weren't able to make it on time, those who had their phones sent to the warden are not able to get back what is theirs that same night. When we had everyting done it was already 11.15 pm if I'm not mistaken. And then there was an announcement to collect the phones. Problem is, the wardens didn't even come in to check the girls' dormitories. We were cheated. Got me worked up for nothing. But it was good since I was able to get most of my stuff nicely packed.

I went to collect my phone together with Syira and Iqa. At the warden's room, I bumped into Luqman Long and one of his friends. Isma was there too. Whatever the reason it is, I didn't know. Meeting Luqman was one thing, that other senior did another thing. An embarassing one. He called that guy's name straight in my face. Fish! Why the heck???! Isma.... Isma.... He was there... He eyed me with a sly intention.... Yikes....
"Haa... Sab.... Dah tau dah la..."

Well, there goes my secret.. Baam! Everyone there could hear it but luckily they barely paid attention. Alhamdulillah..... Baguih2.... Haha.... So, I had my self report the incident back to my other friends as soon as I got back. Seriously pissed off, I continued it with another report to him. Well, what could he do? Just hear me grumble about it, I guess. My, my.... I continued with my homework before finally dozing off. Yeah, we broke the rules that night. We had our lights on until 4 am. Seriously looking for trouble huh? Haha.... Malam last kot.... Buat2 taktau je la ea...

2 Weeks Diary Part 11

2010-12-04T03:26:00.003+08:00

10th November 2010

Yappari!! I finished Maths and Biology Paper 1 today successfully. Woohooo~ Only PJ to work out about tomorrow.. Ara, ara... PJ je kot. Haha... But what am I going to read.. I mean, what are we going to read??? This afternoon, there is the returning of the text books for the Form 4. Not that I care (since my PJ book got lost apparently and I had no idea where it had gone to) but.... Hey, PJ is important too you know.

After attending the last paper of the day I went back home with Sifu because we intended to stop by at the Staff Room for awhile. Then we went for lunch. I couldn't see properly but there were boys in formal wearing gathering in front of the Seke. What was that all about? I couldn't mind it more, but.... That's MY Territory...(!) Ehem, the BWP's territory...

Then I saw Lat, Syira and Yaz coming from that direction. Smiling and laughing sheepishly while looking at that group of boys... Hmmm.... This seems fishy... Suddenly Lat came to me while laughing...
"Eh, Sab.. Aku mintak maaf tapi dia comel sangat!"
'Eh.... Sape??'

I was eating my lunch with my other classmates and besides us were the Serting girls.
"Ai, Sab... Hehe..."
"Apsal lak?" I was dumbfounded. Like what the crap was going on?
"Eh, you tak nampak ke sape kat depan Seke tuh?"
"Haa... Nampak..."
I knew HE was there. What would be for all the commotion.

Then Lat came to me and sat together at the table. Syira and Yaz joined her soon afterwards. Seems that there was a story behind her apologizing to me. I heard it keenly yet I try to cover it like it was no big deal.

"So? Kenape lak?"
"Oh my God Sab.... Dia comel sangat tadi bila dia senyum kat aku. Serius aku tak tipu.."
'What?? Does she want me to be angry? flustered? or simply proud?'
"Owh... Yeke... Haha.."
I could only utter a small laugh. *blushed*
Well, it was simply because he smiled and waved at her that made her so happy. He is cute or so I was informed of it. Lat said he was a good strategist. Trying to get me by getting on my friends' good side. I could only smile and laugh at her thoughts.

-BOOK RETURNING-

After being able to write on all the notes prior to the topics the teacher gave for the exams tomorrow, I was ready to go and return the books. Since we don't have any afternoon exams, everyone took the decision to nap a bit before going to the book returning. If I'm not mistaken, we went there at 3.45 pm or later. Couldn't remember the exact time.

At first I went with Sifu and Mira. Then everyone followed soon afterwards. Since it was still the interview days for the SPC scholarship and it was his day today I met him at the library, diligently reading on a piece of magazine. I heard Mira say that he was eyeing me. Do you think I could exchange glances with him publicly??! Malu laaaaaa..! But Mira couldn't understand, could she? Haha... *sigh*

Then I met him on my way back. And I was thinking of him. Paah.. Speak of the devil, he was in front of me. I wished him good luck since his interview wasn't done yet. Then I went to the Koop together with Sifu. I bought my treat and saw him at the surau. Man.. that was fast.. I even bumped into him at the entrance when I was on my way out.
"Eh, nak orang belanja ke?"
"Haha... Takpe, dah bayar dah" I smiled as sweetly as I could and waited obediently outside for Sifu.
'Man, what's taking her so long???'
It was taking Sifu waaay too long. I was getting nervous waiting outside for so long. Then Fat came to put her bag on the shelf. Najwa and Shiq soon joined her. They knew. They teased. Fat didn't know. She asked...
"Sab, ko jangan kate ko pun nak jadi macam Syana tuh? Ak dah letih dah layan dia"
"Ala, apsal you nak malu-malu Sab. Dia comel ape.."
Hahaha... I could only make a smile behind those tease. I tried to fight but they had the better of me. Then he went out. He waved and said goodbye. I could only reply the gesture back with a hesitant smile. They started it again.
"Eh, tu ke dia?" Fat asked.
Najwa and Syiq laughed while nodding and pushing Fat into the Koop. Not long after that Sifu came out and I whined at her for being late. I told her my story. She told me, good for you... Hey! What was the good part of it??? I was dead embarassed...! *blush*

When I got back, Lat told me her story. An encounter with him. Ha..ha...ha... When will the events stop? *sigh*

I spoke waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too soon.... The night was a much more courageous attempt. *sigh*

He was in the Seke.
'EH!! Why the heck is he here????'
Much more to my displease, more guests was present.
Instead of the most 'busy' BWP, there was Wan and Mail with Afiq Hakimi in there. Faiz told me that we had to open the hampers quick before school ended. Cikgu Maimunah already allowed us too. While he was talking, he could still bite on some crackers. My, my.. You do have a big appetite when it comes to showing off huh Faiz.... Pesh...

Back when I was busy cleaning up the class, Hafid told me that there was going to be a meeting at the Seke. Acap wanted to discuss some important matters. What are those matters? So, was it food matters. All of the other BWP's soon came in. As usual, girls arrived earlier. 'He' was still there sitting on the couch minding his own bussiness.
I...
WAS FREAKIN' OUT....
*sigh*

Ella asked...
"Yes.."
Eza asked...
"Yes..."
Syira was like... "Saab.."
And i was like... "Yes..."

Seems that he came to ask Izzah a favour. So I told Izzah to hurry to Seke. After that we had a chat in front of the Seke. It was just a friendly talk. Then Mira and Salina passed by...
"Aiii, tak habes2 lagi cakap dengan Sab..."
"Miraa.... Nanti ade jugak yang makan sandal aku nanti.."
He laughed. What's the joke?? I was serious!
In the end, he got what he wanted from Izzah and I got some major explaining to do when I get back. Aibooo..... Penin maaa...... Huhu...

2 Weeks Diary Part 10

2010-12-03T02:56:00.005+08:00

9th November 2010

O . M . G

It's Physics today. Did I do well? Hmm... No comment. I read his paper. Lat was busy again saying how lucky I was. Haha... I couldn't help but laugh at the statement.

Sivic? Been there done that.

Exams finish!

-Night Prep-

Well, I had things to discuss with Hafid so I went to peek at the Seke if he was there. But I found another person. It was 'him' sitting in the Seke like it was his place. Part of me was angry because he intruded on our territory but I was more relieved to see him there because finally I could return back the papers he gave. I quickly dashed back to the DS, worried if he would leave, took the file and walked back to the Seke. I opened the door and he quickly turned to face me. I smiled and entered the room. I walked towards him and put the pink file on the table.
"Nih, nak pulangkan balik."
"Oh, terima kasih," he took the file.
"No, thank you."
"Urm, sebenarnye nak jumpa nih nak mintak tolong."
I look at him with a question mark on my mind.
"Nak pinjam buku Nilam boleh? Skali ngan esei BI gak?"
"Oh, boleh je. Sab pegi amik jap ea kat bilik." I answered with a smile.
"Eh, takpe ke?"
"Boleh je. Sab dah biasa."

So I went all the way back to my room to get the book and paper. I asked Syira to accompany me since I saw her still wearing her baju kurung. Then I asked Lat to come along since she reminded me to bring her along to meet the guy. She never did meet him yet so she was so curious. When I told her that I was meeting him, she quickly agreed and dressed back as fast as she could. And so, we went to meet him.

When I arrived, I saw Luqman Long waving his hands to me and looks like he was about to cry. I asked him if he wanted to get his bus tickets. Since Ammar wasn't feeling well, I helped him delegate the tickets to those who came to the Seke. Luqman was one of the fellow victims. Haha... So, I searched in the bag containing the tickets as he interestingly watch over me. 'He' was there as well. Sitting in the same sofa as Luqman, 'he' was watching me with a sprinkle of jealousy. Or so what Lat informed me. Luqman was busy giving me last words before the end of the school term. I was kneeling directly below him. Now that I mention it I was really close wasn't I?
Lat said that it looked as if I was worshipping him as some kind of Sun god or something. Haha...

Suddenly, Amier came in. He got in a fight warning Luqman not to bug me. Haiiih... What a big fuss they're making. Haha.. Suddenly, it reminded me of past times where the debaters would quarrel and make fun of each other. Haha... How I miss those times. Sadly they won't be around anymore after this. After giving him the ticket, he thanked me went out. 'He' also did the same. But...
Luqman couldn't shut his crap. He kept on giving me more advices and wished us good luck for next year (Me, Syira and Lat; which I told her real name, Amalina). Luqman also told me to wish Ammar too, whatever made him think of that guy I also don't know. Bus tickets? Haha...
Owh, yeah.. Luqman also informed me that 'he' was going to be interviewed for tomorrow's SPC. I wished goodluck. 'He' didn't reply.
'Ceyh, malu ape...' I laughed at my own thoughts.
Then we went out. I saw Luqman teasing Kak Syaza Ramli on his way to the Surau together with 'him'. I shouted his name but he didn't hear me. Thanks to Syira I was able to get his attention. I wished him goodluck again. He just waved and said thanks.
'Marah ape dia ni?'

Returned back to my room. Finally knew that he was actually shy in front of Luqman and my friends all of a sudden. Got teased. Same ol, same ol... Ala... School's gonna finish soon, right?

2 Weeks Diary Part 9

2010-12-03T01:31:00.004+08:00

8th November 2010

Ohhh... I had Add Maths today and it was H.O.R.R.I.B.B.L.E. I can say that Paper 1 went awfully good but Paper 2 was a complete disaster. Did you think I was able to do it like I'm a whiz?? Although I studied Add Maths like crazy, I still couldn't do it any better than before. Huhu...*sobbing*

Well, I was able to do my PAI Paper 2 better. Yes, now I can back up my Paper 1 that I did so terribly during my fever last week.... Ahamdulillah..

And so, today went perfectly fine without anything to worry about and nothing to make my heart skip a beat. That was another relief..

But...

I spoke too soon.

After everyone had finished the Isyak prayers there was an announcement calling my name to wait in the Surau afterwards. Problem is, I didn't hear the announcement. And so, I was oblivious to it until Salina came and informed me of the situation. I panicked and was like OMG.
I asked Salina whether if she could accompany me back to the Surau and she said okay.
Guess who called me? Yeah, BINGO. It was him but Salina told me that his friend made the announcement.

At first, I didn't know how to get contact with the person that wanted to meet me. I've lost all my courage all of a sudden. Why? That is the question we have to solve. Nevertheless, Salina was able to detect the person and I meet him. He gazed at me, I did the same. We exchanged a few words and he passed me some money. Seems that he wanted to pay Syaza back for the cellotape she bought a few days ago. And I thought of paying it for him. Oh well, he wants to pay let him pay. Hehe....

When I got back, 10 minutes of teasing and off to Study Ville. Haha.....

So, we had to return our phones back tonight. As usual, I was in my dilemma either to hand it to the wardens or not. So, as I was not that much of a brilliant that night I left it in my room. Silly? Yeah, I know. Out of being sooooo guilty and because I was blessed with a goody-goody-two-shoes attitude, I went all the way back to my room and back again to the Secretariat only to fetch my phone. Seriously, my innocence really gets the better of me sometimes.

After I sent my phone at the warden's room, I head back into the Seke where Syira was loyally waiting for me with her phone in her hands. Haha.. Guess she was facing the same thing like me huh. I saw her holding a pink file. Well, I didn't noticed it until she gave it to me. There were the Physic's papers that I asked for from 'him'. I took it. Oh well, he did a good deed again. *sigh*
Could he be any sweeter... Haha... Psyche Sab, have you fallen for him? Haha...

Syira went to send her phone and then we went back to the Block F. God really did bless our parents to have such nice daughters. Pergh! Really?? Haha...

After taklim, I took out the papers to have a look at them since we were having Physics the next day. His marks were great compared to mine. All of my roommates saw his papers too. Aler keeps on saying how smart it is and Mira was saying how lucky I was to get him. I only smiled at the compliments they made. I feel as though it was the same just like before. Just like in KT. Only it was another person. Suddenly, I felt sad. I don't know why but I did. I shaked the feeling off me and continued with my study. While holding the pink file tight to my chest, I took my stuff to the Study Room and started my Physics conquest.....

2 Weeks Diary Part 8

2010-11-30T00:51:00.004+08:00

7th November 2010

Good, great. A confession. Wow. He finally spilled it out and now I know he really does have feelings for me. Haiii... What am I suppose to do now.... Bingo! Do completely nothing and get my exams finished first... YES! That is the best thing that I could ever come up with since it was the exam week and my fever just got better. I can't afford to get another one out of shock because of this incident. So at midnight, after his confession, I continued studying.
(Hey don't blame me for not being dramatic I have papers to answer....)

I can't simply remember what I did last night but I remembered him asking a freak question to me. It sounded somewhat like this....

'Would it be possible for an accountant to marry a cardiologist'

He's probably referring to us since he was accepted for SPC to continue in accountancy and I had always wanted to be a cardiologist. So I answered....

'Yeah, sure I guess.. As long as they can have some spare time to take care of the family'

Then, he went silent.
'Hmph.. Tido la tuh..'

-STUDY-

The next day was inspection day. Me, Syira, Yani and Izzah didn't want to go and attend the inspection since the BWP's were not called to be present on that time. I asked Izzah wether we should be there or not and she said no. There was a slight confusion going about wether we should go there or just stay in the dormitory. I was freakin' scared because they released the LDP's late and thought that the teachers were waiting for the BWP's. Out of being so damn frighten, I texted him asking about it. I knew he wouldn't reply but I still did(Hey, cikgu2 ade... Nak mati ape..) So in the end, inspection finished smoothly... Haaah... Lucky it wasn't because of our absence that the LDP's were released late. Seems that the teachers' wanted to give a big, long talk as it was the last inpsection of the year. Fuuh.. Lucky...

Okay, remember the cellotape he wanted me to buy. Well, I asked Syaza to buy it and she did. So right after inspection, he asked me to bring the cellotape over at the Secretariat because he needed it. I responsed with a yes and got ready to go. I asked Mira to 'accompany' me. And when she asked to where and who, I replied honestly...(yeah, like a really lousy, straight-headed girl, i know...) So, the three rooms laughed at me, teased me. Yeah, I knew what was coming so I just blushed madly at it. *sigh*

Alright, of course there were errands to run so I had to go with Mira to the cafe to buy food for everyone since they were all starving like hell, so we did. I thought of not getting one but in the end I did. Well, I thought Iqa wanted me to buy some food but actually she was paying back the Nasi Lemak that I bought for her the other day. So I got food to eat. Kinda not what my mind wanted but what my stomach was yearning for. (Haha.. Amik je la)
The line was awfully long so we had to queue quite some time before getting for the food. In the midst of buying the food, I got out of line with Mira to meet him at the Seke. Scared whether he had arrived early. So he did. I saw his stuff. I waited. He texted. I replied.
~Waiting~
"Sab, jom ar kte masuk line dulu. Nanti dia sampai kot jap lagi"
"Kejap je lagi Mira. Dah nak sampai dah. Tu dia."
He walked to me.
"Nah, ni barang yang dipesan."
"Owh, okay. Thank you"
He smiled.
I smiled.
"Urmm.. Pergi dulu ye.."

Mira was smiling at me. I asked why.
"Takde pela Sab. Ish, salah ke aku nak senyum."
And she smiled at me, sheepishly as she could.
"*sigh*... Hmm... Tak salah pun." I smiled back.
We finished our food-shopping and so we returned back to Block F carrying the whole package of food that we bought. We ate and Mira as usual become the story-teller. More embarrassment. More teasing. More fighting back. More laughing. Haha.. Sabar je la... This is the last year. Just a few more days to endure it.

*Smile*

2 Weeks Diary Special

2010-11-19T02:43:00.003+08:00

HIS WORDS

I have fallen in love with someone...
And I want to ask her whether is there someone in her heart...
So, I hope the person named...
Nur Sabreena binti Aminudin Baki could tell me...

(taken from the message he sent me, modified and changed for viewing)

2 Weeks Diary Part 7

2010-11-17T00:36:00.004+08:00

6th November 2010

It's Saturday and Mummy's coming..! Yeah! So I had prep and then Mummy's coming!! Well, it was because of me being ill for the past week that my parents made the decision to come and visit. I so love Ma and Pa.. <3

Morning came. Prep. Yeah. Macam malas, but I still had to attend it. So I went to class while a few of my classmates went to the library. Most of us were in class busy studying for next week's exam. I got myself busy doing add maths since I'm never a pro in it. Then it was recess. Everyone went out to get some grub except for a few of us. There was Aler, Lat, Syira and Yaz together with me in class. If I'm not mistaken, Syaza and Lina were also there but they studied outside of class at the empty space in front of class.
~Singing~
"Sab, ade benda tak atas meja u atau sebelah u??"
"Benda?"
"Yaah. Pembaris ke?"
"Pembaris?? Ade.."
I looked under my book. There was a ruler. It was there since yesterday. I took the ruler.
"T,H,A ke?"
"Yah, yah... Ye kot."
Yaz took the ruler and gave it to someone outside.

'Sape la tuh?? Oh no, don't tell me....'

I ran to the window and stole a look from outside. It was a guy, wearing black. I kept lookingtrying to make sure that it was the correct person. Suddenly, he turned his head.
'Specs!'
I quickly bend my knees, covering my head and ran back to my seat.
"Sape tuh Sab??" asked Sifu.
"Form 5 ke tuh?" I said. Asking not answering.
"Yup." Yaz answered.
OMG
Salina came in. Syaza scrambled to me. Syira was teasing. Yaz was like 'Oh My God, Saab!'. Sifu and Aler......................., please don't look at me that way!

And so it was true. It was him. It was him. It was him... Aish... (sighing)

Whatever that has to do with, I finished prep and went back to my room. Then, I saw Pa waiting outside. OMGeeeee! There're here!! Pa came to me and I salam him. I quickly hurried upstairs and ironed my clothes, got changed and hurried back down. After that, OUTING! Yeah...

On my way to KFC, he called. Yikes. I answered. Double Yikes. He asked me where I was. I said I was out already and I asked him if he needed anything. He said no. I said okay. He told me that he wanted to let me have a look at the photos he took of us but since I was already in Pekan Jasin, he said it's okay. We laughed a bit and the conversation ended. I smiled to myself. Don't know why. Silly me... Haha...

Lat wanted me to buy cakes for her, so I stopped by a bakery and bought two slices of chocolate sponge cake for her. At first I thought of getting him some two. Then, I changed my mind.
'Hmmm... Beli je la untuk dia'
I changed my mind again and went inside. I bought two more slices for him because yesterday was his birthday. I got inside the car and we went back to school.
"Bye ma, bye pa.."
And so Ma, Pa, Ammar and Che Nor went back. When I got back it seems that Syaza had news for me. I waited eagerly for her to tell. Seems that 'he' went to class after I went back. Omooo.... Syaza and Salina knows his face now.
Then he texted me. He asked me to buy him cellophane tapes. For what I simply didn't know but I couldn't because I was back. Omooo... Sorii.... Then I called him apologizing. He laughed. (Aiii.. Suka betol...) I told him to come to the Sekretariat because I have something to give him. He declined the offer and told me to eat it myself. (How did he know it was food??)

After much pleading and persuasion, I was able to talk him into going. I asked Syira to accompany me. I went there with my hands and legs all shaking. (SEGAN!!) How would I not be shaking...??! I'm meeting with the guy that was able to stir my mind and put me in complete confusion this past week. O'course I'm shaking like crazy! I'm only doing this because I don't want to be indebted to him.

I saw him inside. I opened the door. Gave him his cakes and biscuit. Smiled. And walked away. He laughed looking at me being so agitated easily. I was like, 'MAAAALUNYEEEE...'
It didn't end there. Inside my room... AiHooo.... My friends would not stop teasing me. They enjoyed it to their fullest saying there's not gonna be no more him next year so they're going to give me one heck of a time to handle now. Sabar je la.... aiiiish...

The BWP's held a meeting that night. Stressed out everyone was. After it ended, I was on my way back with Syira, Eza and Sam. Suddenly, Kak Azureen called me.
"Sabreena! There's someone who wants to see you."
'Okay. who??' I asked myself. I went there and saw him.
He was holding a paper and he told me that I can have it for revision.
I looked at the paper. Add Maths.
What the?? He's lending me this to study? What method is he pulling now. I smiled and took the paper from his hand.
"Thanks."
That was all I could say out of his kindness for me. I waved goodbye and we exchanged salam before I hit back. I told the girls that that was him. They were to stressed out to care. OOuuh... Poor BWP's... Huhu.. I wished you guys don't have to be like this.. Huhu...

Could tonight end without more surprises?

2 Weeks Diary Part 6

2010-11-15T15:04:00.006+08:00

5th November 2010

Happy Birthday Adib!! and Happy Deepavali too!! Haha.... When it was 12.00 a.m, I quickly took my phone and wished Adib a Happy 16th Birthday. Luckily, I was second in place. His gf got number one. Aiyoo... I know I'd lose to her. Haha... Fireworks were bursting in the nearby housing area. Such festivity. Really fits the celebration. I talked to Adib on the phone for about half an hour. Kinda long. Well, used to it. =)

Friday, friday... It's a holiday and my day off to recuperate and study. Add maths class was held in the morning so all of the class members of 408 had to attend it. The announcement said we had to be present at 9.00 am. Knowing us, we were late half an hour (janji Melayu.. huhu..). When we arrived at class, we couldn't find Cikgu Shidah anywhere.
"Alamak, cikgu dah merajuk ke?"
We were all so scared that Mira got on the phone and called Cikgu Shidah.
"Cikgu, kitorang mintak maaf bnyk2 sal datang lambat nih..."
"Eh, bukan kelas pukul 10 ke??"
"Aik??"
So, we were fooled by Botak's inability to read the text message Cikgu Shidah sent in yesterday.
But still, if we knew that it was at 10, we would most probably have arrived late too.
*Thanks Botak for bringing us early to class!!*

As soon as class was finished, we headed for lunch and then to Fardhu A'in. Our last Fardhu A'in to be precise for this year. There were fourth formers and fifth formers who stood up and asked for forgiveness for past misdeeds. Well, it was common anyways since this will be our last time facing these seniors in TGB. When everything finished, I went back to my block and was busy delagating the books that the students had bought from Kak Amuk. Suddenly, there was this senior onee-chan who wants to see me. She gave me a plastic bag filled with goreng pisang and cekodok. She smiled sheepishly at me while holding out the plastic bag.
"Sape bagi ni kak?"
"Rasenya dah tahu kot"
"Urmm.. Laki ea?"
*nods*
I was madly blushing and I thanked that onee-chan for going through all the trouble to find me in my block. WAAAHHHH....! What's this supposed to mean? And I didn't even asked for it. Huhuhuhu... I had to tell my friends. They will know it sooner or later. Then, I told them. Man, were they laughing like crazy. Enjoying every moment to tease me. Aiboo.. Malu seyh...

In the afternoon, he asked me whether I would want anything to eat. I tried to politely reject the offer but he seems persistent. So in the end, I agreed to ask him to buy me a bottle of 100 plus. He did. And guess what. He passed it to IZZAH. Moreover, MORE people were there with here. Resulting to MORE people knowing. Aiboo..... Bertambah2 malu la...

Could this get any worse?

2 Weeks Diary Part 5

2010-11-13T17:00:00.004+08:00

4th November 2010

Aibooo... Last day of exam for this week. I was particularly happy not only because it is the last day of exam for this week, but also because I am feeling much better and TOMORROW is a holiday... Yeay!!! So I went to school as usual, sat in front of D. Laks (Dewan Laksamana) as usual, and read notes as usual. The usual routine in my exam days.

Then I saw him going down the stairs. I don't know why but i kept staring at him. As soon as he saw me, he waved, smiled and greeted me with a simple 'hi'. I smiled and waved back. Suddenly he was standing behind me and he bended his knees. I turned my head and there he was.
He asked me for a favour. He wanted me to check his essay. I smiled and said okay. He took out a sheet of paper out of his file and gave it to me. I accepted it and slightly bowed. We agreed to meet up again at 3.oo pm after my exams. I wished happy birthday because yesterday was his birthday.

And so, after finishing my 10th subject exams, I headed back to my hostel and got working on the essay. There weren't much errors. I even learned new vocabs on the way. Wow, this guy seems amazing. When the clock was about to strike 3, I got ready and went to the Academic Block.

On my way, I stumbled into Luqman Long, Azrey and another friend of his. He was quite far away but he was shouting my name like it was some kind of game. He asked me whether I was out to get my exam. I said that I was heading for prep. *Lying* Haha....
I saw that guy going out of koop when I was talking to Luqman. Well, I couldn't shout his name like Luqman shouted mine can I? I'm a girl so I just maintained my steps.

I headed into the koop and bought the keropok that Sifu wanted. Luqman made little jokes and I tried my best to ignore him. Knowing me and Luqman, all I could do was smile and said goodbye pleasantly. Haha.... Luqman, Luqman... Gonna miss you next year.

Then, I walked to the Foyer SEM using the same path he did. When I arrived he wasn't there. So, I waited. Then, he came but he told me that he had to go down and take his stuff. I waited. Then he came up, and I gave him his essay. I smiled and said I'm done with it. He asked for any comments and we chat a bit. He gave me a kinder bueno. I accepted it. (Rezeki xkn nk tolak kot)
And he said goodbye. I thought of staying a bit longer to study. He came again and we talked more. Teachers and student were passing by.... (Malunya...!!!) Before people started making their own assumptions, I packed all my stuff and said I got to get going. He smiled and we parted.

Aiiiboooo... Does this mean anything?

2 Weeks Diary Part 4

2010-11-13T16:37:00.003+08:00

3rd November 2010

I went into the examination hall this morning feeling a bit better than yesterday. I went to the clinic with syira yesterday and there was this one guy who got admitted to the hospital. Kesian kt dia. Anyways, hope I can do better today. As soon as I sat on my chair, i looked up at the top right corner of my table. Then, I saw that there was something written on my name label.

'Jangan tido time exam tau. -t-'

I knew who it was. I turned to look at syira. I pointed at my desk. She couldn't make up what I meant. I shooked my head and told her I'll tell later. After finishing the first exam which was Chemistry Paper 1, I told syira that 'u know who' wrote something on my table. She was shocked like I was. Aiyoo.... Is this a sign or something???

2 Weeks Diary Part 3

2010-11-13T16:11:00.003+08:00

2nd October 2010

Exams, exams.... Fever..... Fever.. Fever.... Seems like I'm gonna die... What am I suppose to do? SKip my axams and go sleep in bed. Nope, don't think so... This is my final exam. I can't bail out just yet. I slept a few minutes during my exam. PAI was almost a failure. I can't seem to remember anything much because I slept early yesterday. Haiih... (sighing)

2 Weeks Diary Part 2

2010-11-13T15:35:00.003+08:00

1st November 2010

Aiyooo.... Having a headache, so not good.... I came up with a fever and it's excruciating. My mind feels blank and I can't even concentrate. I just write what I can write and I almost fell like it was hard to do anyting much with my papers. I've tried my best but I don't know if it really can bring my marks higher.... Really scared...

2 Weeks Diary Part 1

2010-11-13T14:07:00.003+08:00

31 October 2010

I was busy studying biology today. Heck, there's bio on the first day. What are you planning to do? Kill MRSM students ah?? So, as I was busy flipping the pages, suddenly I thought of texting back the person who texted me yesterday. The unknown person. Finished texting and I found out that it was a 'he'. Ceyh, mcm knl la pulak.... (mmg knl pown) Funny thing is, how did he get my phone number? At the time, I wasn't bothered to care so I just acted like always, the 'lyn tak lyn' mode I put up whenever somebody I don't know text me.

Then, I fell asleep. A few minutes past and that guy called me.
"Tgh wat per tuh? Tido eh?"
My god, how did he.....?
"Ha'ah. Thanks kejutkan"
Man, was I shocked to hear that. I texted him back and thanked him again. Continued reading my book. It was kinda cloudy and windy so I was attracted to the bed all of a sudden. Two minutes passed. When I was about to fall asleep he texted back,
'Ni jgn dah bce 30 minit pastu tdo blik...'
I stood up straight. How did this guy know??? Shocked but thankful, I put up a smile and thanked him again. Great intuition I thought.

2 Weeks Diary Promo!!!

2010-11-13T13:49:00.004+08:00

Omooo....
Hello everyone!! This time I've got news about my life... Real NEWS that will probabaly blow ur socks off! To those who know about this, u are not allow to reveal anything at all... And I mean NOT ALLOWED AT ALL to reveal even the TINIEST FRAGMENTS of information to enyone. If I hear any leaking going about, I am going to have to break ur heads off!! HAHA.... Just keep it closed people, the world might not be TOTALLY ready for it, so just keep quiet 'kay?
All right, enjoy my new story entitled...

"MY 2 WEEKS
DIARY"

sobs sobs Awwww.....

2010-09-19T02:31:00.006+08:00

I LOOOOOOOOOOVE THIS PART SOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!

The rights and ownership of these manga strips do not belong to me...

They are but the creations of Akamatsu-sensei...

Peace~

Addiction to Manga.. Ngee...~

2010-09-14T03:43:00.004+08:00

Right, I'll tell this straight. I love anime and addicted to manga. So guys, DON'T come near me.

Ngahahahaha....!!

Nope, kidding actually. Do come near me. And while you're at it, grab a copy of the latest Negima will you. Haha...

Seriously, I really like manganime but I wouldn't be able to label myself an otaku. Yes, yes, no crappy stories about love comin' out from my blog. Well, not yet. (n_n) ngee..... ;)

Let it be korean dramas or hindi movies, fashion and style, food sensations or even the latest romance blockbusters, nothing can make my heart fluster than reading a nice thick, work of art manga while reading another piece at the same time. Which can easily be done by looking it up on mangafox. Yes, paradise for otakus, young manga readers who can't afford the high price to buy original manga and those who are newbies in manga reading.

Happiness~

Hehe... I'm know reading Kaichou wa Maid-sama and I gotta tell you that it is SUPERB. I love the characters and the way they develop themselves throughout the story. The mangaka really does a good job putting two people that are likely to cause enigmatic chaos, blooming love and sweet moments together despite the hatred that one shares for the other. Misaki is a masochist. Ordering others as the President of tha Student Council at Seika High. She may seems like a demon, but she works a part-time job at a maid cafe called Maid Latte. Usui who happens to come for a visit found the sickening truth (what Misaki thinks) that might destroy Misaki's reputation as the president. Much to her surprise, the guy keeps it a secret but he stalks Misaki everyday at the cafe. If I were Misaki, I'd never let Usui go. Haha... Why? 'Cause he's so damn cool!! Look at him...

He's so handsome!! Man, I can't get enough of him. But.. He's a bit of a perv. I don't want that. But he's born a gentleman. Always nice to Misaki... Wonder if my destined guy would be like him... Haih....(sighs) In my dreams it would be... Nyuuummm....

Am I getting fat?

2010-09-14T03:22:00.004+08:00

It's been a long time since I asked this question to myself. Well, it's because i haven't been indulging in so much delicacies at home and maybe because Ramadhan had just pass. I just finished eating my supper, considering it was too heavy, I think I'll fast tomorrow.

Yikes...

My weight hasn't been increasing. Luckily... Alhamdulillah.. Bless you, Allah.. Although it's been at a static reading. That reading ain't too good either. Syasya has been losnig weight like hell. Crap, she's been bitin on biscuits for hell knows when. But then, she worries me alot. Sounds like she's getting anorexia and that isn't good at all. Haish.. I worry too much of her.

Food? It has been embedded in me that I will definitely have the ability to stuff my stomach without me noticing it; an abillity that will surely kill me sooner or later. Haha... Since everybody said that I'm already thin, I thought I should eat more. But, I got it wrong. I should eat less and EXERCISE freakin' MORE. One thing about exercise.....

I hate it.

And that's never a good thing. Huhu.. Where's your source of inspiration when tou need 'em. Help me get this fat jelly outta ma belly. I ain't likin it one bit. Nyuu.....

It's Over!!

2010-09-13T00:17:00.001+08:00

Yeah!!

Ape yang over nih??

Segalanya lar!!

Hahahahahahahaha................

Well, sekarang aku dah tau sebabnye... So xdelah sedih sangat an....

Tak baca maka tak cinta...

2010-09-07T17:20:00.004+08:00

Dulu, ak ni memang bukan minah bce novel. Ak x pernah paham knpe org ske sgt bce novel... Cam pelik giler. Lbih2 ag novel bhse melayu9yg english tuh has always been my fav)

Boleh pulak tuh, tgh2 bce novel leh mnangis...

Mmg x phm lgsung apsal leh jd camtuh...

Tp...

Satu hari tuh kwn ak, Mcha, syorkan ak bce novel...

dia bg ak bce citer Plain Jane

citer nih best ar gak... syok ak bce...

tp...

bler ak bce novel nih...

ak tros melekat minat novel!!!

waah.. x sgka dowh.. haha.. tahun ni ak bru bce novel andai itu tkdirnye.. rsenya kalo ak bce dri dulu.. lg la ak fanatik... haha.. oops.. nk gi pasar ramadhan la... chao!!

Nana!! Nak gmbr!!

2010-09-07T17:15:00.001+08:00

Haha.. Nana harap ko bce entry ak nih...

Ak Nk gmbr kte gi UPM td...!!

Hihi...

(mcm xde tepon la pulak..)

For You Who Knows Me Most

2010-09-06T13:33:00.003+08:00

Somewhere in this world

Love existed for me once

It was about the two of us

and how it ended in tragedy

Yes, those were yesterdays

Past times filled with sorrow and sadness

Fret and hatred

Lies and regret

I cried that day

The day I thought I lost you forever

The day my heart was torned

And ripped off my bare chest

But

I was wrong

I still loved you

No matter how much i said 'no'

No matter how much reluctant I was to answer your call

No matter how much it hurted my pride

I still do

Until now

It has always been for you

Astray I have been a few miles away

But whenever I get lost

I remember you

And I remember us

Sometimes

I come across the question

'Am I over him?'

Regardless of time, the question pierces me deep

I hate myself

I hate you

For making me care too much

And now

You ask me

'You had been over me right?'

I smiled

'Yes, I had been over you'

Part of me says no

Another says the other thing

Whatever it is

Let me tell you this

YOU'LL ALWAYS BE MY SPECIAL PERSON

kanak-kanak......

2010-09-03T09:37:00.002+08:00

hari ini ak tgh stress ngan sorang kanak-kanak = pakcik = burung....

mcm budak kecik tol...

satu spesies ngan isma...

aissh....

orngnye....

adelah...

eh, bukan dia burung ke???

mnyampah tol......

nme 'dia'....

hmm...

laen kali je ar....

Balik Kampung~!

2010-09-03T09:11:00.001+08:00

Yaaahoooooooo...................!!!!

Dh nk balik, dh nak balik, dah nak balik, dah nak balik, dah nak balik, dah nak balik, dah nak balik, dah nak balik, dah nak balik, dah nak balik, dah nak balik........

Eeeiii... Sukanya aku. Pasni homework memang brtimbun nak kne siapkan tapi... ak x kesah sal....
DAPAT BALIK!!!

Haha...
Tp an...
Raye taun ni x syok mne ar...
Kwn2 ak kt KT xde nk smbut skali....
huhu....
Sedeyh gler bapak....
Huhu....
*SobS*

Merdeka!!! Love every moment of it....

2010-08-31T22:55:00.000+08:00

Teachers! Pose a smile for us. Yeah...!

The accused BADAR making his way as the 'Energetic Tukang Karut' in the history of

Dikir Barat. Haha...

Zizi, my bro likes u man... How can u attratct guys to my BiSu??

Bedah has been and always will be 'Mr Emo' for all we know... Hehe...

Haha... Sambutan kemerdekaan baru je lepas... I can tell you, that's it has been a tense week preparing for these two days... Seriously... I haven't got enough sleep busy preparing everthing. Having conflicts in BWP also isn't helping. But, at least the moment was all too splendid to be described with words. Haha... TGB really is a new place for me to breath in the sweet smell of success. Hihi.... (not saying that I don't miss KT)

To BWP's:

~Love u all for infinity...~

~Syasya and Sab~

2010-08-14T10:01:00.003+08:00

Sab suke kat Faiz ngan Isma.
Jangan gtau org lain tau...
Hahahahahaha.....
Kebongekan Kemelandaan...
ihatenaz.....n reildhan too....
always keep the faith.,..
syasya suke faiz aiman...

Astaghfirullahalazim....

2010-08-14T08:49:00.003+08:00

Saturday August 14, 2010
Storm kills two in Malacca and Penang hit by flood

"PETALING JAYA: Two people were killed and two others seriously injured in a freak storm at a Ramadan bazaar in Malacca, while in Penang a hillslope retaining wall collapsed, sending a torrent of muddy water into low-cost flats nearby.
In Jasin, flying debris during a freak storm hit traders who were about to set up stalls for the break fast crowd next to the Jasin sports complex. Malacca has been hit by several incidents of flash floods, including a minor landslide, in recent weeks.
The flooding in Penang affected 22 units of the flats as water gushed into the homes in the wee hours of the morning.
Elsewhere in the world, heavy rain across western China caused mudslides and flooding, killing at least 29 people and trapping more than 10,500 in the latest disaster to hit the country.
In Pakistan, fever and diarrhoea are spreading among victims of the worst flooding in decades, amid warnings of storm waters surging south along swollen rivers."

Ish,ish,ish... Anything can happen even during the fastimg month... Aiii... Hope nothing bad happens to those dear to me... Huish...

Habes Merbok.. Malas layn....

2010-08-08T21:56:00.000+08:00

At last, the days in Merbok have ended. It has kind of made me wonder whether it was a nice or a bad experience. Altogether, I had a splendid time there. Hope next time the organizers will have a better preparation in handling such events. Huhu...

Credits to:

Ckgu Adha

Hafid

Ahmad

Nisha

Atikah

Zamir

Iffah

Acap

Kami pi Merbok sat naa...~

2010-08-06T08:57:00.000+08:00

Hoho... Well, skrng ktorang ade kt Merbok. Tgh menjalani Konvensyen Kepimpinan dan Sambutan Kemerdekaan MRSM Se-Malaysia. Dengar macam seronok je kn? But, actually... I can say it's like a completely horrid experience. (Not entirely though..Hehe..)

It all started last Monday when, we, the new BWP for the session 2010/2011 held our first meeting. Thus, a decision has been made up of our positions in the organization. The results are as shown (macam experiment bio la pulak. hehe....) :

President: Hafid
Deputy President: Me
Vice President I: Ahmad
Vice President II: Isma
Secretary: Izzah
Treasurer: Sharifah
Academic Bureau: Syira
Sports Bureau: Azizi
Food Bureau: Eza
ICT Bureau: Faiz
Welfare Bureau: Ammar
Princess/Girls Bureau: Yani
Cultural Bureau: Sam
Religious Bureau: Neezam

After discussing about other stuff, suddenly, Cikgu Amin brought up something in the meeting about this 'konvensyen kepimpinan' stuff. He told us that Hafid and I were to go and participate in the event. At first, I didn't mind. Then, he told me that it was on Thursday. Ok, maybe next Thursday... 5th July. 'What???!!' I was literally shocked knowing that the date was near. To put up with all the last minute arrangements, we have to model a type of cultural clothing. Aiyoo.. Mcm2 mau maaa.... Ok, x kisah coz ada lagi yg ikut. Dorang ar jd model.

On the day of departure, Cikgu Salwa asked us to get a board at the SEM Central. Luck was on our side when we met Ckgu Hjh Noorliza to help us with the stuff. We almost got scolded by the teachers for arriving late a t the bus. Hey, wasn't our fault. You told us last minute... Duh...

The journey took us 8 hours before we reached the main gates of MRSM Merbok. i have a very nice sleep on the way. Hehe.. Tido je krja ak... Sampai2, abes2 daftar, bas KT lak sampai. Apa lagi.. Sukaa x trhingga la cek... Tnya Hafid, boleh x pi sana sat. Dia kta 'X payh lagi la. Nanti dlu'. Last2, pergi je.. Nak mlpas rindu la ktekn.. hehe... Tp x jmpe lme sgt pun. Tchr Nor mcm dh mngamuk, ak dh takut dh.. Woooh... Mcha, As ngan Ain gi Robotik. Xleh nk gossip lme2. huhu... Pikir mcm best la [ulak gi Merbok nih. Pada mulanya...

Sampai waktu malam, time dia bg taklimat... Fuuush... Rse mcm trkejut gile babeng. Why?? The reason is simple. MISCOMMUNICATION . It was only during that time did we know that we had gotten the wrong clothing to model and that we have an exhibition on the last day. OWh, dang... It got us all by surprise. We were half shocked, half angry with a measly portion of perplexion in our mind on what we should next. Aiyaa.. Manyak susah loo... Whatever the case is... We have got to try our best. Yeah!!!

KKB... Abes Syiok~!

2010-07-16T01:16:00.010+08:00

Haha... Been to KKB, been to the killer stairs, seen my old friemds, made some new ones, got runner-up for debate, but most importantly had a superb time there!!

Seriously, I'd never had the same experience since I entered the debating arena in Form 2. This has been my best trip to a debating tournament ever. But, it was kind of dull for me since I'm not speaking or debating. I just became an obeserver there. Well, besides observing, absorbing and analysing the debates, I did help out with some of the work beforehand such as looking for information regarding on several topics and making the debate file look kind of cool in a good way by piling it up with tons of cut outs from the newspaper.

Good thing I brought all of the things to KKB. The boys just left regardlessly without thinking of the debate stuff. Aiyaa.. Ape nk jdi doh.. haha... Whatever the case is, smiles, laughter and cries are all that had kept us debaters strong and together. The laughter part is the best part ever. Never in my history of debating have I ever met such ridiculous people that tend to act in a weird manner yet be so creative and critical in thinking. Serius... Pelik bin ajaib seyh...

Hoho.. Kalo nk cter in detail about everything that happened there, i think I won't even be a ble to type till the last day. My fingers would have been exhausted spreding this and that in my blog. Haha.... Still, there is a little insight I can give out. Just a tinsy little, itty bitty secret that I can spill with you guys reading....

English debaters + Malay deabters = Wise (when they start debating, if not.. kapish...)
Energetic (full of life as always...)
Irrational (at times...)
Responsible (at times... like when?)
Daring (almost all the time, i guarantee....)

Amier = Rambut serabai, kmbar L.L(cerah sket)
Wan = Alim tapi berfikiran 'terbuka', kopiah guy
Khairul = Bajet 'Raoul', love therapist
Dinnie = High Benchmark, banyak cakap
Luqman = -_-...... *quiet* ex-BP.
Sab = Nanny, jge mkan, naik turun tangga, bank
Luqman Long = Hyper lajok, Farid Kamil
Za'ba = Makan? Hair Styler..
Kak Syaeza = Bini L.L.... (???) Mama Izzah
Isma = Slow........... & Steady
Izzah = Anak Kak Syaeza, pembongkar rahsia
Rais = Kemas, bergaya, slalu hilang...

Haha... Lebih kurang camtu la pe yg ktorng wat kt KKB. Secara keseluruhannya, sumer org ckp yg taun ni pnye debate team (Malay & English) mmg syok giler babeng. Best giler ar... Harap2 taun dpn gini gok.. Insyaallah.. Amin...

Alhamdulillah..

2010-06-25T17:28:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah...
Wa syukur lillah...
bersyukur pada mu...
Ya Allah...

kne cuba yg trbaik untuk next sem gak nih.....

DEBATE!!!

2010-06-25T17:25:00.002+08:00

At first.... I thought I was selected to represent tgb for debate, then....

ANOTHER AUDITION????????!!!!!!

WHAT THE.....????

Awww... man....

And this contributes to my stress level today....

Gosh, pray that I could go to KKB.....

Huhu.....

sniff sniff

2010-06-20T02:44:00.002+08:00

I FORGOT HOW BEAUTIFUL YOU WERE......

does it ring a bell?

-sabreena-

Dh nk balik..... Balik.. Balik.... Balik...

2010-06-18T22:04:00.002+08:00

I've been a bad, bad, girl to my blog since I came back..

Yela, bru ari ni nk bukak blog. I've had the intention of writing in, but I know if I ever start typing, my homework ain't comin' clean. And that won't be nice. Huhu...

Anyways, in another day, I'm gonna head back to TGB. Yeah, the time to part with hols are comin closer. I never liked it. Noone does. Or does anyone have an insane mind of going back to school and break your brain with studies?? Owh, no sirrie for me...

Haish.. now off to finidhing my 7000-word article for my Mag-Inc homework. In out. Roger.....

Huhu...

HOMEWORK, here I come!!

2010-06-03T16:57:00.002+08:00

YAhOO!!!!
Exam dh habis...! Bangge giler ak dpt A- dlm add math. Mcm nk trjun bngunan je bler ak tgok mrkh ak... Serius beb... Dulu dpt 50, sekarang dpt 78. Kire bleh bngge ar sikit. Highest dlam kelas ak syirah, 94. Memg hebat ar dak2 kelas ak nih. Haha... 408.. Bese ar... (jgn ingt 417 je hebat ea....)

But.....

I'll have to wait until Tuesday arrive....
Because.....
I'm...
Uhuk...uhuk....
A...
A...
A...
A....
A....
(aik, smpai biler nk a, a ni sab...?)
I'm a VOLUNTEER!!
Haha.... Lame lak x wat kerja amal cenggini. Dlu, kt KT, mke ni ar sokmo dok mencapub wat kerja amal... Trying to practice back the old tradition again here in TGB...

Okay, wanna write more but time is of essence here. Gotta use it wisely....
Next stop....
HoMeWoRk MANIA!!!!!
YippEE!!!

Exams.... Aduyai....

2010-05-03T11:39:00.003+08:00

Aiseh... UPSS bru lepas... Markah x m'berangsangkn.... Ak STRESS doh!!!

Huhu.... Sabo je la... Seriously, I can't say I'm happy with my marks at all. Well, of course, because a big fat C in math and add math not something to be proud about. I felt like dying knowing my marks were that horrid. How am I gonna face the world after this??? Owh, god....

I know that the questions are hard but it's not that hard is it? It's okay actually. Basically, I'm saying it's so damn hard coz I flunked the test. Duh... Figures...

Semester exam lak diawalkan. 19hb nih... Haish, dugaan btol la... Kne bnyk brsabar idop kt TGB nih... Kalo x mampos ak kne telan idop2 ngan kebengongan diri sendiri...

Ya Allah, moga2 ak dpt lakukan yg terbaik untuk semester exams nih... Xnk pulak ak dpt mrkh yg trlmpau 'BOMBASTIK' sampai ak mati tros kne kebumi kt Jasin. No, no, no.... Ain't gonna happen that way. So, kne la brusaha mula dari sekarng ye sab... Jgn asyik nk tdo2 lam kelas lak... RUgI.....

The 9th Interschool Debating Championship 2010

2010-04-19T12:05:00.005+08:00

Currently I'm in KAED lecture hall or more specifically known as the main auditorium at the architectural faculty. Hoho... Being my third year in this tournament has really been an unexpected event for me. At first, I thought I had no chance of being anywhere present in this tournament either by physical nor by mental. Simple to put, I actually had no intention of participating in the first place. Since I've committed blasphemy towards KT when I converted to TGB, I thought that my standard of debating was at a low level compared to other students here. Part of it was correct 'cause my seniors, (Kak Syaza, Kak Azureen, Abg Amier) are definitely good speakers in the debate arena. But the thing is, they didn't come and participate in this year's tournament mainly because of the clash between the event and UPSS II (except for Abg Amier that is, he's going to I-SWEEP). Thus, the junior debaters are sent to participate this year together with Abg Ikhmal. It's his first time to enter such a grand debating event so his main objective is of course to gain experience.

Instead, for me, Luqman, and Wan, I think we were actually anticipating a win. I know the school is not concern about the win or loss in this tournament but it seems illogical for 3 students who had actually participated in IIU before to not be able to strive for the best. Isn't it kinda weird? To me it is. And if only I could've realized this earlier during my days in KT, i would have tried my best to debate and win the matches at that time. How regrettable.....

As I am now studying in KT, I've discovered so many new things, exposed to so many new knowledge and values that I've never actually given a thought to think about. Of course la, I was still a really immature low secondary student at that time yet it wasn't a good reason for me to give to support the losses that I've given to my beloved MRSMKT. Now that I'm gone, having this sudden thought won't give any benefit to my previous school. I can only implement this sudden discovery at my new journey in TGB.

Nevertheless, I am willing to share any information or experience to anyone that's asking because I don't want to be stingy in the knowledge I've learned. If teachers could actually be generous enough to convey any knowledge that they know to their students and not expect for any repayment, than who am I, a student with a mere amount of knowledge to be a stingy no-good-snobbish-kind-of-girl in the picture here today? See? No clear and good relevance in it..

That is why I'm thinking of continuing my career in debating next year so that I can repent over my past losses and sins. So that there's enough and sufficient time to prepare for debates. So that I can win next time. So that I can do better in this tournament; in any debating tournament. Insyaallah, if Allah may grant us the winning side....

Insyaallah, if Allah sees us as people who deserve to win. Insyaallah....

Special thanks to:

Ms. Yati,

Ms. Fini,

Kak Diana, Kak Charuna,

Kak Hanan, Syauqi, Kak Jo,

Diyana Ya'acob,

Lukman, Fikri.....

For being there when I needed you guys the most.....

NuRSaB_SmileS

Yo Abang!!

Silent Friends

I really felt like dying

Alhamdulillah..

Seems true enough.

Aler, Izni, OU and Me

Aler, MISS YOU!!

One Direction. This is not real.

Upsie Daisie

Panjang-panjang-panjang

La mia FAMIGLIA

Koizora, Tears, Reflection

B.O.O.K.W.O.R.M

New Treatment: Silence

I wonder...

Out to Midvalley~

Growing older. *aheem* mature.

All Hail Housewives!!

I haven't been writing much have I?

My Mr. Mystery..

TGB. :)

Skies!! 大好き~

Let's start Anew shall we?

It's New Year *sigh*

Not my plan

All about Usui

Reminiscing past memories

SAYA GEMBIRA!!

I'm in the middle of the night.. Thinking...

Facelift~

Detailed stuff on ME!!

The numbers doesn't matter... Do they?

Smile Sab~

You came in my dreams too often...

Leave me alone oil tanker~!

Masak je aku nih...

This is for ALL of you!

Sharing is Caring~

It's been ages and I come back with STRESS...

Crap Sab, stop thinking about it!

Would you choose me?

I miss my bloggie and I miss.....

Seriously stressed out...

Energy Boosting Breakfast Foods~~

Am I Strict, Stern and Aggresive?

Waah~ Blog ak dicerobohi~~

My 100th POST!

COMIC FIESTA 2010

I think I should be honest

.................................

사랑해요 SHINEE 가족 !!

Oh Presento TeddyOo~~

Uuuuh... Jangan marah saya....

Hey, It's Me!! Nyaah~!

Exploring Domo's Place.... Ngee~~

Heish, bengangnye aku....

Sabreena, taknak tambah followers ke?

A few changes here and there

Exams.. Pergh, SPM taun depan....

Hidup aku yang lalu sebagai ayam... (ala.. macam biografi aku sebuah pen tuh...)

Where is my "Cruiseliner" a.k.a Bot Mewah???

Aku benci ayat basi laki.....

I was SOOO touched.....

2 Weeks Diary Part 13

2 Weeks Diary Part 12

2 Weeks Diary Part 11

2 Weeks Diary Part 10

2 Weeks Diary Part 9

2 Weeks Diary Part 8

2 Weeks Diary Special

2 Weeks Diary Part 7

2 Weeks Diary Part 6

2 Weeks Diary Part 5

2 Weeks Diary Part 4

2 Weeks Diary Part 3

2 Weeks Diary Part 2

2 Weeks Diary Part 1

2 Weeks Diary Promo!!!

*sobs* *sobs* Awwww.....

Growing older. aheem mature.

It's New Year sigh

sobs sobs Awwww.....

sniff sniff